Just dead

Just dead

A Poem by Soma-ko
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How I've been feeling, and how I feel now...

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If there is a God, I deserve to go to hell. 
Death, my friend who I've never feared. 
Just let me die. 

I'm so tired, I've thought too many times. 
My eyes hurt, I've felt this for awhile now. 
A boy who loves all, but has a passion for nothing, 
A future so bleak, because he has nothing to work for. 

Parents who are just, and allow freedom unto me, 
Allows me to aim for the stars, whichever direction I please. 
But I have no compass, nothing to start me along my way, 
My last year of high school, signaling the last year of play. 

What college do you wish to attend? 
A question asked too many a time. 
But more importantly, what do you want to be? 
A poisonous inquiry that plagues my mind. 

I don't know what I want to be when I grow up, 
I'm sorry I have no mind. 
No dream for me to follow, 
No northern star for me to find. 

What do I want to be when I grow up... 
No passion to lead my life. 
A boy who loves everything, 
Yet everything the boy despised. 

I'm so tired. 

Death is such a sweet release, 
But I wish not to bring grief to those dear. 
No one really knows me though, 
But the illusion of me, they hold. 

Just let me die, 
In a accident, I suppose. 
For suicide brings to many questions, 
With no one really to blame. 

People will start pointing fingers, 
Something so juvenile, to ease the pain. 
The funeral will cost money, 
And I wish not to burden them even more. 

I know the deceased shouldn't care not for the living, 
I guess I'm considerate this way. 

I just don't know. 
I just don't care. 
I'm just so tired. 
I... Just want to fade. 

Just let me die. 
Death, my friend who I've never feared. 
If there is a God, I deserve to go to hell. 

At least I won't be alone there...

© 2013 Soma-ko


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An interesting write Soma...lots of questions...but i'm sure they will be answered...I know you are an intelligent young guy...and you will be successful i'm sure what you choose...Rose:)

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A powerful read...hope your ok hun x

Posted 11 Years Ago


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Me

11 Years Ago

If ever ya need to talk, don't hesitate to msg me x
Soma-ko

11 Years Ago

Thanks. :)
Just a little uncertain of what to be when I grow up... Not sure on what majors to .. read more
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Really wish I could do it all over again, I skipped so much school left with nothing...so many regre.. read more

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