I Am

Loathing oneself.

I am but a disgusting creature.

 

One who takes up space,

Who hurts others,

Who is by right useless.

 

I am an idiot, who sees the light,

But stays in darkness.

 

I am but a slug

Disgusting,

Despicable,

Devious.

 

I am but human,

I am but nothing.

 

Filled with regret, evil, and shame

I am me.

Reviews

[AlchemicPlutonian]

Strange I fell upon this today.
I got fired from one of my jobs last week, and without having the money to pay a bill, and knowing that I spent it on booze, I pretty much gave myself this speech; nearly verbatim.

I find it completely normal at times to be let down by who we've become.
Our own ideals about ourselves, both as individuals, and as a whole are really quite delusional.
Overall, we're a jaded, disgusting bunch of things. But we try real hard to rationalize our impurities.
As far as I've seen, not many can really accomplish such a feat.

[Soma-ko]

Ah, we tend to succumb to our desires and bad habits no matter how much we try, and knowledge on the outcome barely affects the decision. What a sad coincidence it was for you to bump into this poem, and knowing it has only been a weeks time, I hope your situation has gotten better. If not, well. There's little I can do about it, and as clique as it may seems, its completely up to you, in a way, no matter how small that may be.

[NA]

Oh I can relate to this one Soma...how I have said these words to myself all too often. Glad you no longer feel this way :)

[Soma-ko]

I hope you too no longer feel this way as well. Thanks for reading. :)

[SyberRose]

I hope you don't feel this way now dear Soma...you seem like a very nice intelligent person to me...and
it has been very nice knowing you...Rose:)

[Soma-ko]

Worry not. I have come to terms with myself, and my bearing a while ago. This poem was one of my first, around over a year ago. Part of it is due to the small amounts of effort I actually put into things, when I have a full capacity over completing them. Glad you read this piece, and it has been a wonderful experience in knowing you. :)

[HeavenSunArcadez]

these are some powerful emotions coming out of this write.... but Man to Man i respect your honesty and bravery for even feeling us in on your inner thoughts; Because ive felt some of these thoughts myself but was never able to state it for others to read... u get mad props for that... but as humans we all are despicable at some point.... none of us are perfect and we all think, do and say terrible things... in that case we all fall short, of perfection.... were all born in a world of Sin, and once we overcome the thought that well never be perfect but we are important in life, we capture a mindset of doing positive things, and living our lives... to the fullest.. another awesome write my friend. much respect to you

[Soma-ko]

This was one of my very first poems around over a year ago, and I was more than reluctant in posting this up. But what you say is true my friend, it matters not on how much we hate ourselves, and despise our living, but what we do during that time to face it, the decisions we make along the way that paves the road for another day. Thank you for your insight, and I'm glad you stumbled upon this piece.

[Grant P.]

There is a lot of self hatred in this poem. This could be the thoughts you feel you are viewed. Very good write about how oneself knows what they should do, but doesn't do the opposite. I like how you used slug to describe the three words preceding it "disgusting, despicable, devious." Nice write keep up the good work.

[Soma-ko]

These are actually, honestly, some of the thoughts I once felt towards myself. Thank you for the compliments, and I'll be sure to write on. :)