Turning The Page

If you love someone sometimes you must let them go and turn a brand new page. But forever shall you love them, even beyond your last age.

The evening draws nigh and stillness takes hold

As I watch you slowly walk out the door.

And as loneliness casts its shadow upon me

My tears pour forth upon the floor.

 

Each droplet has such a pain within

And every one such a story to tell

Of the love contained inside of me

And the feelings I cannot help.

 

Each footstep you lightly tread upon the ground

Takes a piece of my shattered heart.

I can’t seem to look away from you

Even though my soul is tearing apart.

 

Memories of our happy times flow through me

And memories of our sad times just the same.

Every one brings with it a great sorrow

And with every sorrow comes great pain.

 

I ask myself what I have done to you

To make you feel the way you do

For it was not so long ago

That we shared a love so true.

 

As the hours pass me by this day

Comfort has not grasped my hand.

And I sit so lonely, deep in thought

Wanting so much to hold you again.

 

The morning brings forth a new day

But the feeing is still not new.

For still pain and loss bereave me

For I’ve spent a night apart from you.

 

This day I see you as I’m out

As you are walking with your friends.

And still feelings for you flow through me.

As I look at you I fall in love again.

 

This brings no ease to my sorrows

And only makes the loss so much worse.

Only because I know that you don’t need me.

It seems that this shall forever be my curse.
 

The weeks continue on this way

And still bring no comfort to me.

Even though I’m so afraid to lose you

I still so long to be free.

 

It is so hard to live on feelings

And the hope that you will return

And slowly I am realizing

This lesson that must be learned.

 

It is so hard to be without you

But avoid you I do

In hopes that I can learn to live without you

And start my life anew.

 

Even though every time I see you

I long to hold your hand

But I turn away and try not to look.

This I hope you understand.

 

No longer can I live like this.

On hopes and dreams I waste away.

I still love you so dearly

But I have to find a brand new day.

 

In my day you were my sun

And in your love I never had doubt.

But now my day is dark and cold

Because my sun has been put out.

 

Still more weeks pass me by

With loneliness in my heart.

My friends try to comfort me

And help me get a new start.

 

Then one day sick I am

Of living my life like this.

I decide there has to be a change

Or so much I will miss.

 

I do still long for you

And love you just the same

But I can’t afford to miss my life

And in the end have my own blame.

 

I could miss so many experiences

And opportunities that come hither to me.

I could miss the chance to love again

Or I could miss the chance to be free.

 

Even though my emotion tries to quell this desire

It is far too strong to be quelled.

Free I want so free I’ll be

And nothing will be withheld.

 

I try to put the past behind me

And turn to the dawning of a new age.

I love you so I must let you go.

It is now time to turn the page.

 

I begin to author a new chapter in life

For the previous entries I burned.

If you love someone sometimes you must let them go

Is the lesson that I have learned.

 

I go about my life again

And soon even find new love.

And I know that someone is watching;

Giving me help from up above.

 

Feelings still I have for you

And I know they will never change.

And even though I’ve found new love

Still it isn’t quite the same.

 

Weeks turn into long months

And months still into longer years.

Though I never forgot my love for you

I still remember my tears.

 

I have turned a new page in life

And never shall I go back against the flow.

But still I do love you.

I just wanted you to know.

 

I love you so I’ll let you go.

This is my greatest gift to you.

And I’ll always be here for help and comfort.

Forever as a friend shall I be true.

 

But turn the page I have

And I hope you understand.

For I love you and I have to let you go

And now our new lives are both at hand.

 

Forever shall I remember and hold

The love that I have for you.

But even though I’m just a friend

Forever shall I, a friend, be true.

 

©T.A.Rogers

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Author's Note

Unbiased truth.