Destiny's Smile

Destiny's Smile

As destiny smiled upon us,

There was a smile upon your face.

The warmth of our hearts intertwined,

We knew it must be fate.

 

Our love was strong
And only grew stronger by the day.

As I held you in my arms,

I knew Id never stray.

 

Time passed without a care
As I looked into your eyes.

I could see our future in them

Along lifes many miles.

 

No doubt did I have

That we were meant to be.

For even though you held me close

You made me feel so free.

No doubt did you have
That our love would endure.

though your heart had been broken
In our love you found your cure.

 

Never would you stray away

You felt in your heart.

For you longed to hold me close

In the times that we were apart.

 

So many times you told me
I made you feel like no other had.

I gave you many happy times

To replace the ones that were sad.

 

No doubt was in our hearts
That we were meant to be.

To be together and never let go

Was our lovers' honest plea.

 

Then as time continued on

Things began to change.

We hadnt much time to spend together

But our love remained the same.

 

We still found time for one another

Even though it was sometimes scarce.

And always with that little time

We found ways to make it the best.

 

Every time I looked into your eyes

I could feel your love so strong.

And every time that I held you close

I could feel your love so warm.

 

But as time passed,
I hurt you once or twice.

And even though I never meant to

Your love was still the price.

 

You still loved me so very much

But for the hurt, you loved me less.

And I couldnt win back that little piece

Even though I tried my best.

 

As the days continued on,

I hurt you even more.

Sometimes I never even knew

What my mistakes had bore.

 

Even though I asked you,

Sometimes you never told.

Your heart that had once been so warm,

Began to become cold.

 

Then one day I saw you with him,

And jealousy took its toll.

Even though it was only friendship,

I began to see it as more.

 

Ttrusted you with all my heart,

But I feared because of the hurt I caused.

I felt as though I would lose you

Because of your love that I had lost.

 

I confronted you about it,

And each time you reassured me

That it was only a friendship

And thats all it ever would be.

 

But as I hurt you more,

I began to fear the worst.

I felt that your love was dying out

Because it wasnt as strong as at the first.

 

I confronted you about him

And this time went too far.

I lost my composure once again

And hurt you one last time.

 

This shattered what we had left

And almost cost me your love.

I tried so hard to win it back

And even prayed for help from above.

 

You tried to feel what you once felt,

But it was to no avail.

Even though we took time apart,

Still it did not help.

 

You gave me a chance to win you back

And I tried with all I had.
But I had no idea what to do

And the hurt only made you sad.

 

I longed so much to keep you,

But It broke my heart to see you hurt,

I suggested to start anew as friends

Hoping a little time would work.

 

We took time apart

And I continued to show that I cared.

Hoping to win your love back,

Hoping that you still cared.

 

But one day out of the blue

You found love in someone else.

In a friend I thought I could trust.

A friend of yours as well.

 

Even though you didnt intend it,

It still shattered my heart.

And the thought of losing you for good

Tore my world apart.

 

Emotions controlled me,

Love, hate, jealousy, and grief.

And even though i confronted him,

It still brought no comfort to me.

 

I still lie in bed every night

And think of you until I fall asleep.

Our friendship, now subsided.

My loneliness and grief.

 

I tried to find ways out.

To not think about the truth.

Depression knawed my heart

At the thought of losing  you.

 

I tried so many ways

To forget and let you go.

Even thoughts about taking my life

Knawed at my torn soul.

 

For who am I without you?

Who am I without your love?

But these thoughts were subsided

As I sought help from above.

 

I tried to find love anew

And forget the pain you caused.

even though I deserved what I got,

I couldnt take the loss.

 

Noone else was worth my time

And I couldnt start anew.

For every time I looked at someone else,

All that I saw was you.

 

Still I dream endlessly,

And in every dream I see your face.

It makes the loss so much worse.

And I feel so out of place.

 

Maybe someday we can start over again

Is the hope inside my soul.

Maybe someday you can forgive me

And become that missing peice of my soul.

 

 ©T.A.Rogers

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Author's Note

Unbiased truth.