Relapse Religion

Because reviewing past demons keeps new ones in the dark.

Food was like a curse to me
To eat was to sin
Against a god that didn’t exist
For Anny was my world
The only voice I could hear
The only sense I could make
My only friend in this world of hate
Not eating made me happy
But I had to feed my soul
Binge and purge every night
Sweet relief was my goal
All I wanted was to die
I knew I stumbled closer
Spiraling in a black abyss
About to face plant on Death’s door
Heart stuttered and stopped
Breathing was a chore
But life hung on
Like an ugly little w***e
I almost drank a bottle of bleach
Put it down at the whispers of guilt
And Mommy took me to the hospital
They knew just what to do
Tried to make light of the situation
But I viciously fought them too
Lived on liquid for a while
Turned up my nose at every plate
They threatened me with the feeding tube before
I just gave in and ate
And slowly I got better
My heart rate no longer stuttered
But I made every effort
To keep Anny Anorexia alive
Just a little longer

Till I was no longer forced

To merely survive

And relapse

Just a trip home

To the toilet

A simple regurgitation

Away...

Author's Note

This is literally all I used to write about, my goodness. Makes my vampires seem almost original in comparison to the past writings I've dug up. hehe

Reviews

[Ralph Rosell]

Like how you personified Anorexia. The twist!
My favorite lines:
Spiraling in a black abyss
About to face plant on Death’s door
Heart stuttered and stopped
Breathing was a chore
Just perfect.

The ending was very well worded, like the perfect last piece to this amazingly written poetic puzzle.
And the title...
Super big Like!! :)

[SoberBunny]

Aww thank you so much :) just made my morning it really did