My awkward Shyness! :(

Just about my feelings of today! 27.6.08 1.12pm

How to start?

My unbelievable shyness or the fact I feel low?

First of all I'm just so damn shy I don't even know what to say!

Maybe am scared of people hurting me?

Or the fact of being maybe judged!

I am quite good normally at talking to people!

But recently I've become more shy!

Yes you may think how can she be shy she an actor!

But I just cannot for the life of me understand why i cannot stay in a room and talk to people.

My boyfriends quite concerned though since i will be going to University in September.

This one person is his sister!

She a really nice person never nasty or mean.

But i try to talk to hr i freeze up and cannot go in her room.

I've spoken to her on Msn quite a few times now i found that very easy to do!

But face to face conversation i just go really stupid!

I really wanna get to know her i really do!

Does this mean am going to be like this forever?

I cannot talk am i mute?

I feel stupid because am deaf and if i do not hear stuff i tend to ask twice because of background noise.

But people get sick of me asking what they have just said and even i do it when people ask me!

I feel stupid not wanted and unable to be friendly!

Like when we went to London last Wednesday i did not enjoy it due to the fact my back hurt i was hungry and had no bloody money!

Plus i had to follow them around everywhere!

How that then when i said i had stuff on my mind they say so we all have!

I will not say what i had on my mind but it was serious and upsetting!

I glad I've finished College i really did hate it!

Plus now I'm in University too!

I'm dead excited about it!

Now all i need is some advice on how to over come my shyness!?

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Author's Note

Sorry for any mistakes!

Reviews

[Rainbowco]

So hard to believe that one who is so open in her poems, which are quite fine, can be overcome with shyness around people. I do not doubt the truth of it though, take confidence from your writings, be open and true, others will gather around you.

[An owl on the moon]

So very insightful into your heart and soul... You have such an amazing depth to your life, and you will find a way to overcome your shyness so others can come to appreciate who you really are inside! I used to be horribly shy (overly concerned of what people thought about me), but time can lift you to a place of peace and a place where you simply enjoy people unconcerned about their opinions... Love the depth of your words!!!!!!