Are you ashamed of me?

About situation in my lfe that i felt i was a dissapointment to my family!

The failure of myself the disappointment.

Feeling useless like a fly in the ointment.

Not being like everyone else but trying to be me.

Living, being me why can you see.

 

The difficulties i have to live with each day.

I never give up i always work out a way.

But little nudges hints that your frustrated.

Feels to like i'm not good enough and hated.

 

Why can't you see my life kinda tough.

What being myself isn't enough?

I'm not perfect not like everyone you see.

Why can't you be like glad that i'm just me?

 

My mum hid my grades to ashamed to show off.

Felt empty inside like a barn yard trough.

Being slowly eaten by everyone around.

Not hearing my cries no tiny little sound.

 

My dad ashamed ask me why i'm still stuck.

I simply say had a bad day lol just my luck.

I should have passed getting stuck by now.

Pushing me aside like heavy driven plough.

 

Do people who struggle not get more time?

To get to the standard where WE feel fine!

To feel confident we carry on and not give up.

Or is that what they say as oh tough luck!

 

Can we not re sit tests or be given help when driving?

Or not be given praise to help us keep thriving.

I never fully use my learning difficulty as an excuse.

Why can't they be some reasoning some sort of truce?

 

I've never shouted i'm Dyspraxic from the roof.

Or never flashed the papers to show proof.

But yet you'll still find that people will judge.

Or still hate you and hold a grudge.

 

Will life always be difficult will i always be a mess?

Full of pressure full of anger me under stress?

But what can i do i go at my own pace.

Any life's never ben a race!

Author's Note

Sorry for any mistakes i'm not feeling to well and am tired if any please do say x

Reviews

[One Last Drop...]

Wow...a lot of emotion there...

It's really well written. I loved how you asked fairly valid questions. It's not easy sometimes for some people, and others need to understand that. I really liked reading this.
~Ash