Why can i not stop these feelings have?

Poem i wrote 5 mins ago!

I've never understood it the feeling quite odd

The sensation the feelings like i'm on a rod

Being pulled one way and lead another more.

It hurts inside the cracking, i'm tore.

Between loving and hurting why don't you see?

In every moment in every breath of insecurity.

I'm too far off to prove to further to talk.

I'm not trying rule you or trying to stalk.

I just cannot get rid of these feelings inside.

I've had so many people over time who have lied and lied.

I love you so much more than this life.

And one day i want to me your wife.

To have your children to love you each day.

Why does it feel your taking it away?

My feeling are numb unsure what to do?

But i know one thing i cannot stop being in love with you!

Author's Note

Sorry for grammar and spelling! it like 1am lol