Under His Skin

A Story by SmileyLady

Inuyasha's trauma caused him to be a living corpse, his nightmares and dark past over flows him.. Genre-angst.

Golden eyes burning trough flames, blood dripping from his little yet paralyzed eyes. Little frail figure silently stood like a clay doll. Blood poured like a waterfall. His little eyes cold and dull, His little body silently drown in tears.

-Mother.... the last little word He whispered.

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Golden eyes silently reflect trough the shinning moon, tears falling from His cheeks. His little dog ears silently twitch. His body numb. His words silently spoke. Though his mind blank filled with bitterness.

-Mother, if I only been the son you have wanted, the son you needed. You were deep in pain because of me.

His feet silently paint footsteps. He walked, yet he didn't know where he would go. He didn't care.. Nothing matter's. Why would He stay when he is a broken shell in the sea? He was misunderstood even by those he called friends. His mother have died because of him being a half-demon, his father died because of him.... His first friend and love have died because of his demonic hands. His golden eyes dull, His mind burning trough memories. He screamed, He screamed from pain and agony. His golden eyes slowly become dull and lifeless. He gave up...

Sun broke trough the shadows. Birds sing a sad lullaby. Golden orbs shine trough the sun revealing a frail, pale figure. His silence filled the air. Though he had been only a mere figure that had reflected on the shadows. He had noticed that a girl who was the reincarnation of his dead lover have left. He sighed sadly as he sat silently on the coldness. His golden eyes gazed to brown eyes.

-Inuyasha, are you alright? You look sad... the girl whispered.

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His mother slowly hugged the little demon boy. She cried for him, She lay tears for Him. She slowly kissed the little demon's head as she though smiled sadly.

-Inuyasha, are you alright? You look sad... His mother asked.

-Mommy, why are you crying? He had remember only the question that have broke his mother.

-Watashinohaha o yurushimasu...

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Inuyasha had been silent. His eyes burning trough memories of his mother's cries. He gazed into the young woman's eyes as though he was a clay doll, passing trough your own soul. The young woman gazed deeper trough his eyes, only to see dull, cold eyes. Inuyasha's golden beautiful eyes silently seem to change color, why though? His eyes deep black color.. the color of death.

-Inuyasha, why aren't you speaking? Why? She asked hopelessly.

Because of what I become.. a blood thirsty monster.

-Inuyasha, please. If there is something bothering you, tell me. You saved my life as I am deeply worried about you. She begged him.

Humans despise me, I have been a target of many pain because I am bleeding monster, a creature that was never meant to be born.

Inuyasha did not wince nor speak. He sat silently, His eyes dull as though it was an empty hole in darkness. The touch of a familiar woman had been nothing of only a shard of his broken soul. Nothing seemed to matter to him anymore. His mental pain was deep, His mind blank, memories burn as a sheet covered in flames in the cold snowy winter. He been silent, He didn't bother about voices that repeated his name. His heard burned trough Hell...

-Inuyasha, why are you being stubborn?! Why are you not listening when we are trying to help you?! Sit!!

Inuyasha's boiling pain ran trough his body, blood began pouring from his body. His body numb, His mind spinning as a little music box. He felt as though his blood thirsty demon nature slowly burning over his body, yet Inuyasha didn't stood, His body was paralyzed.

-Kagome! Why have you used this word?! You couldn't see that He is already in pain?!! Kagome stood in shock...

Inuyasha growled, He slowly stood. His golden eyes deep black, He was covered in fresh blood. His fangs sharp as a silver moon. His eyes were deep almond black, they were deep and dull as a moonless night..

-Inuyasha.... Kagome slowly whispered the name.

-You think I don't know your damn excuses Kagome?! You liars, you say I am a two timer and jerk, but what about the monk huh?!! He slept with women almost every time! Inuyasha growled.

-Inuyasha, please! Your demon side could kill us as well with you! the brown eyes slayed begged.

-You think I don't want to kill you all?!! Inuyasha pushed her away, taking out his tessaiga.

His black eyes gaze trough many shade eyes, hurtfulness and devastation filled in their souls. Inuyasha's mind burned trough the time his mother was devastated to have a son like him. His head spin like a dancing doll.

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I remember when I was 6 years of age, I was bleeding, but I loved the smell of blood, I didn't bother to care, but when my mother saw me... Her eyes devastated of me, a shameless monster.

-My dear child, I can't bear your blood thirsty monster. Inuyasha, I would not known I am raising a monster... my mother's words broken me. I let her down.

- Mother... I couldn't speak, I was broken by my own self.

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-Inuyasha, I am sorry if we hurt you, please! Please don't give up!! We need you!! the young priestess begged him.

You don't understand! I am a monster, I broken so many lives, I killed the person I loved!! I'm a devil, Naraku's child!!

-Stay away! don't go near me!! I will kill you all!! Inuyasha's claws slashed trough his pale flesh, blood poured trough the wound reflecting the memories burning trough his mind, creating deep pain. His body numb, He couldn't move.
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-Why did you betray me Inuyasha??!! her voice echo trough his heart.

-Blood... that red liquid dripping from her, the smell of blood.

Her wound was my hell, I murdered the person I loved. Her eyes screamed with anger and betrayal... she wished my death, for me to die.

-I will not rest in peace, until I see you dead!! Those words kept repeating in my mind.

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Brown eyes couldn't see life in the pale face, she couldn't see the half demon she known, He stood while blood fell from his wound.. the same wound the priestess once had. He didn't wince nor scream. He stood, He didn't breath. Kagome tried to walk, she couldn't.. something didn't allow her, someone didn't want her to. She was lost of words seeing only Inuyasha's sad smile.

-Inuyasha? Are you alright? Kagome found herself asking him.

-I don't cry, I don't smile, am I normal Kagome? He asked her.

They are silent, am I just a creature? Unwanted and insecure? Is that all I am?

-am I normal Kagome? Or am I just a sick demon desiring blood? He kept asking her.