I forgot

I forgot ...
When you were born I couldn't remember
the black hole, decayed
The void
The cave where my emotions laid
Desolate and afraid
I couldn't remember all those empty things I once craved

The way my world you rocked
With your free spirit unlocked
So much attention you required
Of you I never tired
Unconditional love, always seemed so out of sight
Until I birthed
It was my Right


So f*****g in love with this new path
I gave birth to you but you gave me life.


But life took a toll

Fighting to maintain the status quo
Those days began to blur
Summed up to "where did the time go"
Working day into night
Trying to keep everything right
So tired of asking for more
Interrupted by struggle
Those Feelings of insecure
I forgot to remember
The joy you conjured
My attention you deserved

And At times my temper burst
I had to take time to put me first
And It may seem that My vision
Was The worst And my words
Loud and cursed
There was no book with verse
no script to rehearse
Only my love
Washing over like
A crashing wave
against the ocean floor
Submersed

Sunlight casting shadows down my back
Moonlight illuminated against the black
I forgot
You were my light...No you are my light
See .. Still not getting this s**t right

Reviews

[CLR9]

I read a lot of really bad poetry on this site. But this is probably one the more honest, least selfish, least self masturbatory pieces. The theme of motherhood here is really a kind of thing in which is a struggle, you realize this, but also embrace it as something that cannot just be let go of.

Wonderfully done.

[Stephanie]

Thank you so much, that means a lot :)

[Danzig16]

You got this s**t right! You have done everything you can since the second that you had your kids and you are doing a great job! They are lucky to have you!

[Stephanie]

Thank you so much Jess, love you !!