What I FeltA Story by Andreea_is_realJust emotions and no facts. To cut it straight to the point, I am not creating,
especially not in this moment, within any particular intentional frame; the
opposite, and not the antonym, to that being a pure release of freedom which,
for some time that many may call a human’s life, has been severely caged in a
space that unfortunately belonged to me no more. What I personally find more
tragic than not knowing is guessing and the one responsible for feeding me through
the metal bars could have been you, yours, or literally anyone else. Allowing
myself to fall into the pit that others dug for me is a matter of oscillating
between love and fear; not only did another soul cover the transition between
my dream and my reality, but also my inner self could only hover around the
imagination of a brain which belonged to anyone else but mine. I am only assuming that this is the reason why
I find myself in the position of presenting such a weakness in front of the
unknown. I felt not strong enough to convince the unknown to know me. Is it
that bad? Many ugly faces have shown themselves before my eyes and the
same ugly faces became even more ugly after I had changed my T-Shirt.
Interestingly enough, I think I have deep knowledge about my opinion about these
faces, which again did not belong to me, but I am diagonally unsure which T-Shirt
I like to see myself in, this or that. At least, considering my scarce capacity
of instigating useful thinking, I can say that the particle behind the sentence
aforementioned hides nothing more nor less than the fact that I need to gain
control over the manner in which people’s eyes shine, or not, whenever they see
me. My will for power manifests itself in the more unnatural ways I have
personally been willing to witness. I present no interest for that which comes
easy, nor interest to spread my wing around it, yet I have, with time, gained
strict levels of respect for one beautiful kingdom. Not many have shown
themselves to me yet. I want them to shout my name and applaud at my show. What do you think? © 2022 Andreea_is_real |
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