What I Feel

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Things can get confusing and distract me from what I actually feel.

 The feelings we feel are the most difficult to sort out, and actually understand,

 but they are the most beautiful in retrospect.

 

 

 Recently, there are feelings that are holding me back.

Like watching a movie, I want to watch everything.

 I don’t want to be there, but I am.

Sometimes reacting to things is a drag, but it’s one of those things that you have to deal with all the time.

 

 

 It’s difficult to go through everything with a smile on your face.

It’s forced upon you like gravity. Nothing can stop it, but if it wasn’t there, then maybe you wouldn’t be there either.

 

 

 

People are hard to handle.

 Hard to grasp, for me.

 I’m waiting for a train, but it never shows up.

 I’m waiting for something to happen, but it never does.

 I don’t know if it ever will, but I wait here hoping, thinking about everything.

 

 

 

Thinking about the past can make you realize the present, and how you fucked up.

Remembering everything that once was, and just sitting, and knowing, that things won’t ever be like that again.

 Maybe they will, but the feeling you get, in the moment, is all that you can think about.

 I know.

I can’t do anything.

I won’t change anything.

 The mind can only travel so far, but I guess hoping is worth a shot.