Chapter 1 Amanda

The chapters will be split as Joe and Amanda will each have their own chapters in their own point of view.

When I woke the next morning the first thing I did was that I rung up my best friend, tears were glistening over my eyes as her phone rang. It was early but I had to talk to someone, I had to let them know. Only human in the world I could talk to was Ingrit though, my only friend, my only best friend. We were friends since 5^th grade, but became best friends in 6^th. We were the only two from our old friends group that actually stayed friends.

 

Someone picked up the phone, “Hel-“ She started to say; I didn’t let her finish though.

”Inks!” I screamed. “I had another one.” My voice calmed as I listened to the other end of the line. I moved my short brown hair from my brown eyes as I waited for a response from my friend.

 

“You did?” She asked me simply. I nodded into the phone. “Which one was it tonight?” Her curiosity slowly rising, but worry was stirring in her voice as she heard me sniff into the phone. “Don’t tell me it was another self-harm, one?” She said. I sniffed again, this time not being able to hold myself back

 

“Yes…” I stated as tears slid down my cheeks. “It started with us walking on the beach, I was talking to him about my manic Depression and he stopped when I told him I use to harm myself.” I sniffed. “I know this dream was brought on by my manic, but I am so afraid of these dreams…” I stated, “Well, he stared at me for a few minutes, tears forming in his eyes. I asked him what was wrong and he grabbed my hand.” I took a deep breath, “He flipped my hand over then rested his arm in my grip. I watched as he pulled up his sleeve.”

 

Ingrit interrupted, “mm, yeah…” She said sadly. I knew, she knew where this was going with this.

 

“Well, as I saw just a tan arm he licked his fingers, then rubbed a part of his arm, revealing that he hasd makeup hiding his scars.” I busted into tears, sobbing like a mad-man to my friend. “I…don’t…want…this…” I sobbed into the phone.

 

Ingrit snapped her lips closed and thought for a minutes, “Amanda.” She finally said. “You love him. I know you do. This is what is right.” She told me. “You wouldn’t have these strong feelings for just no reason, God has a plan for you.” She encouraged.

 

I sighed, relaxing a bit. “But what if he doesn’t, what if I’m just a game to him?” I asked. “So far it just seems like a sick twisted joke that God is setting up for me.” I told her. “I don’t want this. I don’t want these dreams; I don’t want to think about him, I don’t want to cry myself to sleep because of him. I don’t want to beat myself up for some Rockstar I have never met in my life!”

 

“Amanda!” Ingrit yelled, “I know you don’t.” She reassured me, “But, think about this, in a few months you’ll be done with school and we can head to Cali.” I could tell she was smiling into the phone. “We will be free from this place and possibly, fate will bring you two together!” she said excitingly.

 

I lay back in my bed, “What if he doesn-“

 

Ingrit cut me off, “Shut up. He’ll love you! It’s meant to be, I’m telling you.” She sighed, “Why else would you dream about him every night. You two have a connection, he’ll see it!” She laughed, “Perhaps he dreams about you too.”

 

“Yeah, unlikely, but nice try.” I laughed as well.

 

How could Joe dream or even just think about me? He doesn’t know I’m even alive, there’s no such thing as a human connection from such a long distances, there’s no such thing as soul mates. There’s no such thing as fate… is there?

Author's Note

Sorry it's so short, I have a feelings this stories chapters will be shorter then most of my stories, since I'm splitting the chapters up into each persons POV.

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"Only human in the world I could talk to was Ingrit though, my only friend, my only best friend. We were friends since 5th grade, but became best friends in 6th. We were the only two from our old friends group that actually stayed friends."

You know you can always talk to me about anything, love. It still amazes me that we're the only ones out of a group of six that are still friends. Then again, it just goes to show that the others weren't true friends... Too bad (for them).

"“But what if he doesn’t, what if I’m just a game to him?” I asked. “So far it just seems like a sick twisted joke that God is setting up for me.” I told her. “I don’t want this. I don’t want these dreams; I don’t want to think about him, I don’t want to cry myself to sleep because of him. I don’t want to beat myself up for some Rockstar I have never met in my life!”"

Life is never fair nor clear with its intentions. All one can do is make choices in their life and see where their decisions bring them, hoping for the better possible outcome. In the end, it's those who stood by you to the end, both the old and new friends that truly matter. People come and go, and very few will ever understand another to the same degree.

This part made me laugh:

"I lay back in my bed, “What if he doesn-“

Ingrit cut me off, “Shut up. He’ll love you! It’s meant to be, I’m telling you.” She sighed, “Why else would you dream about him every night. You two have a connection, he’ll see it!” She laughed, “Perhaps he dreams about you too.”

“Yeah, unlikely, but nice try.” I laughed as well."

I always wonder if Bill ever dreams about me with how often I dream about him, but I always face the reality that he most likely doesn't... It's a sad fact to face... Funny to imagine what his thoughts would be if he ever did dream about me, though. Haha. Then again, I'm a firm believer of soul mates, love at first sight, and connections between people who have never met before. :)

"there’s no such thing as a human connection from such a long distances, there’s no such thing as soul mates. There’s no such thing as fate… is there?"

*whispers* Yes there is! *clears throat and nods*

I love how the chapters are split between your girl and Joe; it's not so confusing and helps the story flow with extreme ease.

Please, write more. :)