A Pondering Mind

A Pondering Mind

 

Sometimes you just have to write because you need to let everything out of your mind. Let all your worries and thoughts fall into the pages. Escape from reality or fears. The worries of life or becoming someone you don’t ever want to be. The fear of growing up and losing yourself in reality. Whatever happened to living life to the extent? What ever happened to being forever young?  When the biggest problem was sharing crayons or spilling your ice cream. Now it is every responsibility you once feared having, working your life away, pages and pages of studies to finish. Maybe you find someone to love or maybe you are hurt over thousands of times. Maybe you once trusted but now cant trust anyone but yourself. No matter how much you love them there will always be that little doubt hiding behind your heart. No matter how much you want that doubt to go away it will not. The questions do they love me?, do they talk or look at other people the way they look at me?, will I lose them one day?, will they leave me for someone better?, will we be together forever like I want to be?

Some other thoughts would be, will my life be better than the one I have now or worse? Will I have a perfect marriage or end like the one my parents had. Will I have kids? Will the gorgeous and precious? Or  be hyper and uncontrollable? Will I be a good parent? Will my husband and I raise them right? Will they end up getting into bad things one day?

All the worries in one’s mind and the stress of a future that is unknown to them. Just swarming in the mind of people. The future is the future for a reason. We can’t just all escape to never land and be forever immortal. We just grow old and wise. Enjoy every moment because that moment may end fast. Love the people we love with all our love. Never give up on dreams because one day they may come true in front of our very own eyes. Life is an adventure with so many questions. One day we will reach the end of the journey and have all our questions answered. Then that’s that…or could it be a new start? Or something possibly continuing?   

Author's Note

ignore grammar problems, this is my first..i tried

Reviews

[Melanie Langlois]

Very nice. You sound young. I wouldn't dread it all. Some. But not all. You will understand when you get there.

[Hannah]

Yes ma'am and thank you for the review! I am usually happy and positive but sometimes i get those sad moments too! but I am and will learn a lot more growing up! :)