Questions thrown at heaven

"The hardest questions stir the sweetest answers"

Am I free?
Am I stuck in quick sand of sin?
Am I free from lurking demons within?
Am I free?
Am I chained to millstones of maimed memories?
Am I free from festering fears of troubled tomorrows?
Am I free?
Am I locked in a prison of my wandering words?
Am I shocked that the rebel within threw away the key?
Am I like that dog going back to its vomit?
Am I like those pearls scattered before the swine?
Am I that hidden coin, lost in a dark, unknown corner?
Am I that prodigal son,
Swallowing my pride
Refusing, at last, to continue to hide?

What are you doing here, my son,
On the rubbish heap of lost dreams,
And misdirected wishes?
You scrape your healed scars
With scraps of resurrected pain
You fight my guiding spirit every day
And go your own, sin-inspired way.
You started all those years ago
Seeking the place
Where my presence dwells -
What happened?
Who bewitched you?
Who derailed your happy zeal?
Give me the treasure of your soul
Let me look under the furniture of your life,
And find that pearl of greatest price -
The gold coin of lasting faith.
Offer your restless self as a living sacrifice
On my gentle altar of ceaseless grace
And there you'll find my love-drenched face.

Reviews

[Einstein Noodle]

oh my goodness Sleepless! this is beautiful ... spot on humanity .. and how we fear laying that old self on a sacrificial alter ... how we feel terror in the face of God ... your poem brings several things from the Bible to mind ..but for me especially in Galatians 6:9 "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."
and Hebrews 10:31 "It is a dreadful thing to fall into the hands of the living God."
you capture our human frailties to a "T" ... i love this honest outpouring of a thirsty soul! ...gald to hav read it this morning ..to put my mind on a better thought path ..
E.

[SleeplessVolcano]

My "normal" poetry fast for December is leading down quite a soul searching path.....soon I will escape civilization and meditate far from the maddening crowd for a double dose of inspiration.....

Thanks Einstein.....your words inspire me and give me hope.

[Einstein Noodle]

just don't get lost on that mountain top :) and don't forget the lowly cafe :)))

[V]

Really good one. Especially, the second stanza. The first one asks important questions on life in a philosophical way, the second one reads as if elaborating on it in a way. Amazingly nice reading expressions in your poem. I think you created a great poem.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

this is the real meaning of God...the one of peace, love and contentment---the one that has us respect others, not harm them in his name...

humans have to believe in themselves, since he believes in us---but too easy to not believe and then go astray trying to make up for that lack of self-belief...

nicely expressed.

[patricia]

this makes me think of the flight of an aeroplane. It is rarely on course but usually gets to where its going eventually. Nice Soul searcher.

[Lox]

Too many words yet still understandable. Nice job! I love the description quote