I Lay Here...

my first posting, about my countless nights without sleep please only constructive criticism, after all these are my thoughts i cant control the quality of them.

I Lay here

two fingers on each temple

wishing away my thoughts and hoping that maybe tonight

the allusive dream of sleep will grace me with its presence and

cast away the constant beating in my brain that screams for my head to be rested

but, alas, that is not a request i can meet 

as although i know that i should let consciousness go from my grasp

my fingers only tighten around its neck

 I lay here

silent as i am, inside i scream 

while the rest of the world laughs in their beds

they throw me cliches

'count to tire you brain'

but only i know my brain is tired enough

only i know that the problem doesn't lie with the energy i have

it lies with that energy which i have not

the stabbing irony that i am but too tired to fall asleep

I lay here

every crushing thought has danced in my head twice over

but there is not cure for me

pills may loosen my grip on consciousness but i can never dream

the only dreams i have are that which are TO dream

where hopefully tomorrow people will forget to ask

why when i laugh its forced or when i smile my eyes only show pain

they cant understand, no one ever will

i will have to lay until morning

Author's Note

ignore the fact i dont use capital 'i's or apostrophes :|

Reviews

[Neo]

I like the lack of capital i's because it feels like a teenager is speaking, and it adds so much more to the poem for me.
I also suffer from insomnia, so I really understand the "too tired to sleep" feeling. And waking up after taking sleeping pills feels like you're rising from the dead.
This poem is excellent. Thanks for sharing. :)

[TheSleeplessKnight]

thanks so much! i have never shared my poems before so it means alot that people like them and its always great to find someone who understands.

[Neo]

It took me a while to share my work, too, at first. I felt so vulnerable. But on this site I've realized there will always be someone who will appreciate and understand, and that's what makes it worth while. I really hope you post more poetry in the future. :)

[FateDictates]

you astound me with the ease of writing you display and I can hardly wait to read your work that displays a maturity and humble conviction...you should be proud..