where it started

the first moment in my life that change me......... for the worse (all this stuff is true that's why im hiding behind fake names)

It was March 4th 2009. I was 6 years old to the day. I was so happy. I woke up around 8:30 A.M. At this point I was living with my 3 cousins Lilly,Stefanie and Jason. Lilly and Stefanie were playing outside. Our parents were shopping. I was sitting on my bed Jason walked in. Jason was 8 he was and still is a football player. As I was sitting he sat on the bed in front of me. At first he was normal asking if I was okay normal stuff. Then he put his hand on my shoulder at first it was light and soft but as I got pushed down I felt his fingers wrapping around my shoulder and he applied more pressure. I tried to sit back up. He placed his other hand on my other shoulder this time not lightly. He pushed me onto the bed. He started to kiss me with a crazy force that pushed my head into the mattress. I pushed away at his chest as he pulled me closer. He grabbed my wrists and got on top of me. He then kisses down to my neck I started to cry softly I didn't want him to hear me. for some reason I was embarrassed. He lifted me up so I was sitting. I was trying to hide my face he took my shirt off. At this point in my life I didn't wear a bra. He took off his shirt he stood up and took off his pants. I didn't look I didn't want to see anything. He picked me up off the bed. He unbuttoned my pants and pulled them down. I looked over to the wall as he pulled down my underwear. He put me back on the bed I tried pushing away at this point I started screaming. He put one figure over my lips and said "shhhh." I started crying I looked up at the ceiling. He pulled down his boxers. I screamed but all he did was laugh. and then he started breathing heavy. I cried even more screaming. When he was done he got up and through my clothes at me. He said "now this is a birthday you'll remember." I never told a single soul until ....... now.