Breaking Point

I go around pretending like everything is fine when in reality it really isn't. Everything is wrong and nothing makes sense. Maybe to other people it does but not to me.i don't understand how people can be so mean yet they can be so perfect they can makes someone feel so bad about themselves that they don't feel like living anymore. I don't understand how people can say "I love you" to anyone and just say it's just word. It isn't it means so much more than that. Love is different than like. Love is so much more complex. Teenagers don't understand that word. Teenagers don't understand anything. Everyone looks the same talks the same dresses the same everyone does the same stuff and none is different because they are scared of what other people will say. Other people will judge someone for being themselves and in school that's what you where told be yourself that's the best person you can be and then when we try we are so ashamed of who we actually are
We go back to being a clone of someone else. I feel like I hate everyone because i do feel like everyone hates me. I wish I could be open about my problems I wish I could tell someone how I could actually feel. I wish I could be normal. But that can't happen. I keep everything bottled up until there's a breaking point.