Life and it's limitations

A Story by Vanessa June

It is not exactly a story more of reality

Life apparently is an irony of itself. The rate at which things are getting weird is alarming. Everytime I saddle myself with the responsibility of thinking about what goes on in the human mind and the turnouts,I am either depressed or saddened.
To start with half of the times one feels they have hit jackpot with that amazing friend that is a blessing to yourself and your entire existence only to realize, it is another mistaken identity,it depresses the mind. Majority people end up with thoughts like I am immune to pain and the saddness that comes with it, I tell you that is absolutely untrue.
No one actually likes to admit how Hurt and pained they feel every time they feel that amazing friend drift, they just end up with lines like " it happens", "such is life"
Does anyone have the slightest incline how that makes me feel? It is the height of betrayal In all ramifications, one minute you are trying to find your comfort zone and establish a relationship with the person, you tell them your fears and how you hope they you all can be friends longer than the usual and then they assure you "am in this long haul". You begin to loosen up, you begin to share thoughts, ideas, pain sometimes just when you were finding footings, they begin to drift.
You try your possible best to push so hard just because you don't want to end up with another broken friendship, apparently not one party can ensue in a dialogue. Finally you get tired of pushing forward and then that phase is done with. Another potential "friend" shows up, follows in the same trend and no matter how you try to avoid the situation of previous relationships, they end up sour as all. The frustration that lies within is unfathomable, and the worse part? They never leave with cogent reason.
This is the part where you start questioning your relationship skills with people, because in the deepest of your mind you believe you are an amazing person and that no one should ever treat you with such disdain. It's a bit intense, paranoia kicks in and then you feel like whatever the next candidate says is some kinda subterfuge to sabotage you on an emotional level.
At that point you no longer possess the ability to tell the weed from the shaft, and unconsciously you push the few people that has taken you to heart(if you are lucky enough to have those). Some people are of the opinion that friends are not an utmost priority which I share to a certain extent because they tend to make or mar you, but then majority people are not exactly antisocial so to speak,the cliché meeting people and you guys hit it off from there isn't exactly envisaged but then it is one of the basic occurrences one has to benefit in life.
It just turns out that some people do not share the Same principles or tolerance or encompass as others which could be fine at stage one phase, but then if you choose to go ahead with that friendship, nature as well as courtesy requires you step out of your comfort zone. You never know how much difference you have created in that one person's life just by being their "friend".
Many people say, it is rare to meet that special "friend" that you will cherish so much and conveniently expect the same percentage if not more from the other party, that is not hear say. So if you have that one friend that tolerates appreciates and cares for you in the most amazing manner, do not forget to appreciate as well as acknowledge their efforts, they are the limited edition.
Vanessa June.