No Longer "I"

Will it ever change?
Will I ever do something about these thoughts
        and motives
The ones that haunt my dreams
      My days
Perhaps
   Maybe when all has been said
          and done
Maybe once all the others have been taken away
   and [mis]led from me
                          I
        will stand as a solitary monument
  to inner strength
            will and spirit
    But it's always been the same old
              DAMNED
                   if I do
        DAMNED
                 if I don't
     SHAMMED
                  if I will
             and
        MOCKED
 if I won't...
              So here is where I stand
           currently stuck in a middle ground
   where the broken glass and lies beneath my feet cut deep
                     into my sole
      Where no one who speaks out
                      walks unreprimanded
           and the burden of brotherhood seems too high
                        This is where I stand
                   This is where I take two steps back
             and hand down all I have built up to
   This is where
               I
                             stand

It seems a trifle queer
         to turn my back on all I have
    except....
Except that there is one thing
            one thing that overpowers it all
            one thing that shrinks all else to the most minuscule of importance
            one thing that shines in the world of darkness which I'm shrouded
   You
and because of you
   I
              no longer stand alone
        I
 no longer have need to struggle by myself
          I [am with] you
              and there is nothing
      repeat
                 nothing
  that can stand against me
          nothing that I won't tear down with ease
   because you build me
          you strengthen me
 you hold me up, you give me hope, you light my darkness
          You
  are the one who lifts my spirit when I feel inadequacy setting in
           You
You
You
You!
              The metallic taste you bring to my life
         The beauteous art that you've created
                      [and not just on canvas] that I adore
       The songs that stream in my thoughts throughout day and night
 The dreams you have have lightened and no longer plague me
                The hope you give me that humanity isn't  as doomed as I thought
    The touch of love and adoration that I've never felt
                           The warmth of a soul akin to my own
         The love I've never felt
You!
              All has been revealed in a flash
         when until now, the years I've spent searching
                     spent hunting for a meaning and a reason
            a way to feel complacent
                        and never have
          have been been taking a painstakingly long time to pan out...
but now....
          but now You are here...
                       You
       You give me reason to stand
 to live
       to hope and dream
                  to love
    and to think
You.

Anything I have
       everything I have
 there is no price I would not pay for You
     to be with You
I
 who have never wanted to stand equally with someone so much as I do now
     I
             who have stood alone for so long
 I
         who has yet to shed a tear for the fallen
I [stand with] You
            You are a part of me
     and I would gladly fade away to show the world
               that
 I
         am part of a "we" or an "us"
 All I know from here on out is this:
       I [LOVE] You

 and I'm not going anywhere unless

         You [are with] me
 

Reviews

[Brittany]

You had me from the start. I like the progression in this one. When we're alone for so long it's almost surreal when we find someone so akin to us. I dig your style, the format in this piece is beautiful. It flows back and forth almost disconnected entirely from itself, but held together with the 'I's and 'You's. Brilliant. Also thought that the enclosed words between all the 'I's and 'You's was especially clever. This was a great piece and I enjoyed reading it very much.

[Rachel DeHart]

I love this.... it is so amazing.
You're amazing.
And talented. Like WOAH.
:]