Bound By Addiction

The feelings of addiction.

-Bound By Addiction-


I wake up in pain, take a pill to suppress it 
Slide into a haze of not caring for only a moment 
Time moves slow and my brain doesn't process things as fast 
I wonder how much longer will this affect last?

 
Deal the deal - Doesn't feel like I am WEALTHY
I feel guilty and lonely 
Lost is what I am, but I do not know what to do 
I cannot keep track of my thoughts so fast they come to me 

 
I cannot get a grip on my life - I have no control 
To be quite honest this game is getting old 
I've tried a dozen things to try to make things right 
Don't know if I will end up winning or losing this fight 

 
One time I cut down only to sweat into depression 
Shivering, Shaking and it wasn't even passed eleven 
I denied my symptoms telling myself I wasn't addicted 
I even made it through the trial only to slip again  
I am conflicted 

 
I am tired of this hurt and I've even tried to silence it 
Had doctors put me through therapy  
They acted like they cared so much for me only they are just there for the money 
Judgment is what they cast on me with looks that could make you hate yourself more 

 
I wish someone were in my shoes for second 
To feel what I feel, To see what I've seen 
They will want to wake themselves up thinking its all just a bad dream 
If only I could be free of my addictions 
My life would not even begin to be easier 
I guess that is why these pressed powders are so appealing 
It takes you away from your troubles and past indiscretions

Author's Note

I think this is one of the most powerful pieces I've written. It's rough - It's exactly what I thought at that time that I thought needed to be written down. The way we go about life sometimes the things we use to numb our feelings to something that's happened or happening to us is wild. The feeling of feeling nothing sucks you in not to feel hurt.

Reviews

[-Scribe in Style-]

Also i must add, the lack of punctuation and the single question mark gives a remarkable effect too.

[-Scribe in Style-]

Amazing! It totally blows the mind away. It is definitely powerful and violent. I am taking a lot away after reading this poem. And like others have mentioned, it is not just the words or the meaning; the presentation, choice of exaggeration and where it is necessary to make things stand out... All of this adds to the intensity of the poem.

[Layla J Omorose]

This is a powerful piece not just from the words and subject matter but by the way you choose to style the poem with certain words standing out gives a visual deatil as to how hetic the life of an addict is. I enjoyed this poem greatly.

[Cynthia]

I love this as well, yes, it IS one of your most powerful piece of writing, cause its rough, but the feeling is like a giant rush! It keep crushing to me! Also, the way you present this poem, I mean the big letter, emphasizing, it makes the poem much stronger! I guess people are all bounded by a kind of addiction, not just the bad ones, but good ones as well, but we're all bound by at least... well.. something.
Overall, I love this poem much!

[Sherbs Dreaming Tree Of..]

Wow this was mind blowing!
I just wrote something similar like 10 minutes ago so this is really weird haha
But i really enjoyed the write

[Sarah Morgan]

Yes actually I did mean it to be that way. A lot of my writing is like this.. I can write a piece of something and it not really to me step out and punch you in the face like I want lol. I want people to know what I'm feeling.