Confessions

CONFESSIONS

 

Ok so here it goes,

When I saw you for the first time I fell in love with you

I went crazy telling my friends about it, I was spending sleepless nights

And one day I confessed my love to you,

And you’re a man,

How could you resist my charm?

How could you let go of those curves?

How could you avoid those eyes staring right into your soul?

You’re a man, you couldn’t have.

And there it all begun, too many promises, s**t loads of expectations

And we were doing fine; you were in love with me,

And oh yes I was crazy about you too.

Talking to you on the phone all night,

Meeting you for a screw,

Did I say meeting you for a srew?

Wait- did that hurt your sentiments?

Do you feel heartbroken?

Do you still love me?

Oh f**k it, let me carry on.

I could look at you for hours,

I could hug you forever; at least that’s what I thought.

I could make love to you all night every night

And we did make love

Not sure if it satisfied the animal inside me,

But it sure did make me feel like a princess, a cute little girl in love.

You knew me, oh you still know me and that kinda sucks at times

You know me too much, it gets annoying sometimes

You handled me when I used to get all crazy

You knocked sense into me when I was just an impulsive little b***h

You taught me so much, taught me how to behave

Taught me about myself, you made me see the world with different eyes

You did so much for me and so did I.

I loved you so much; I put a lot of effort in this relationship. You must agree.

You can’t deny all those times when I went overboard doing things for you

To make you feel special, to pamper you.

Wait… what the hell? I was the one who wanted to be pampered.

I wanted everything that an ordinary girl wants

I may have denied it several times, on several occasions

But I wanted everything that I said I didn’t.

That I said didn’t matter to me, because I wanted to sound wise.

But you’re a simple man, you couldn’t have ever guessed

So you simply loved me, not thinking about my needs,

You thought I was happy and that love alone was enough for me

I wish It was. Isn’t love supposed to be enough?

Well if it is, then I think I wasn’t in love, but I’m sure I was.

This feeling is so exasperating. When you don’t know what to do.

Yes, I don’t know what to do.

Maybe you can tell me, you’re a smart man.

No wait, you’ll ask for another chance,

To make it up to me, to give me all that I want

But you see, it doesn’t matter now,

I wanted all that then, not now.

So you can’t get another shot.

Now, tell me what to do? Do you have any suggestions?

You wanna talk this thing over? Oh please we’ve done it way too many times.

I’m just sick of it. Sick of love. Or maybe, you just don’t excite me anymore.

Why is that?

Why aren’t you perfect?

But no one is perfect, right?

But you looked perfect to me 2 years back

Then what has happened to me now that I see all these flaws in you?

Is it me or have you grown from being flawless to the man you are.

I know you love me. Stop saying it over and over again.

Wait, you don’t even say it anymore because I’ve been so bitter to you.

But I know you do. I wish I didn’t.

It would’ve been so much easier.

I do miss you; I’m not a heartless w***e.

But for now, I just wanna be alone.

Author's Note

I'm not a writer. This is my first post. I tried to write a monologue. Feedback would be appreciated.

Reviews

[Avinash]

Women are like nature; ever changing, loving, ferocious, kind, ruthless and that is probably why they can carry a life inside them. Men should just feel lucky when they shower their love. And if you are man enough they will come back to you again and again.
Enjoyed that emotional roller coaster with you. Very true and honest to your feelings. But I hope and wish the season changes soon :)

[Sjay]

Thank you so much for the feedback. :)

[Ashira Macy]

For someone who isn't a writer this read like a charm. You structured it like a thought process which I thought was really neat. One line says something and then the next contradicts or parries it. This is also something that I think a lot of people go through. If you are with someone for a long time you either grow together or grow apart, and sometimes there is nothing you can do about it. Great work on this.

[Sjay]

Thanks a lot. :)

[Ashley]

I like it a lot of feelings about love some of the parts I heard before from my exboyfriends but again I liked the poem :)

[Edward Lancheister]

well written story from your romantically moment with the one that you love. see your perspective, experience when your in love.

thanks for share