A Distant Love

Long - distance relationships...

Its not that easy
Living with your invisible presence
Pretending that you are
Feigning that you exist
Within an arm's reach
But all I touch is empty air
Reeking of a rotting memory

I've kept you safe in my mind
A place where time cannot strike
You have not changed
I don't let you

But within this broken reverie
Through the tiny cracks that appear now and then
I find you on a distant plane
Unaware of the fading lines
That once bound us close
Now frayed; I hang on to them
Do you...

Have you, in your expanded vision,
Left all our promises buried and forgotten?

Have you, in your new found strength,
Left 'us' out, in the cold?

In a new life that you share
I guess, you pulled out all those old fragments
In a bid to be so new and fresh
For all those strange, new and fresh faces

Its not that easy
To be left behind in the waters of the past
They are stagnant and empty
No dreams grow there
Among the scattered carcasses of so many hopes
Ignorance, it has finally claimed that land

I wish I could understand you more
And I can, yet again
Justify all that is you
Reason rarely does bother with feelings
And it is they which command me

And I wish I could express it all
So that, for once, you could look beyond
Your narrow sphere of life
And see another
Helplessly entwined with yours
If only it wasn't so...

Liberating, is that what love is supposed to be?
But I feel entrapped,
Smothered by the growing distance
Its not mere figures anymore
And I am choked on all my unsaid words
Silence, I fear, is what I hear now
Deep within me
So don't accuse me of being silent
Because I have nothing to say

You disguise your fear well
If you fear at all
Hidden under your cheerful smiles and undying laughs
Is it a confusion similar to mine?
Are you still caught up in your flawless vision
Of a life unplanned?
Do you dream?
Do you remember?

Worthless questions and absent answers
And with a sigh, I have to ignore them all again

I wonder if I still know you
Long it has been since I last knew you right
Its not that easy
To love a distant stranger
A stranger strangely familiar
But for how long...

Author's Note

Something I've been feeling lately...

Reviews

[Silent Lover]

Sorrow is often sweet when dancing with love. We all reach, yearn, and dream, of a place, a person; anything to free us from the madness of the moment. The dulness between flights. The darkness between nights.

You capture the journey of human yearning, the raw cry of dignity. Your words reflect your willingness to gaze deeply into the cave of the unknown, and to walk into it, believing their is somebody there to embrace you - seen, or perhaps unseen.

[Dayran]

Its nice to be able to sound off on the issues, rather than hold it back for fear of losing more of what we treasure. When we realize that we have left the paddock gate open and all the cows have wandered away, it may be time to leave, ourselves. Great write!

[Victoria PoetryBunny]

Wow you express the feelings well in this with a long distance relationship/love. I really like this, all the questions in this gave it even more feeling. The heart and honesty within this and the feelings... very nice, I really like this.

[exotic flotsam]

Painful though it may be, the only certain thing in life, is the past. An emotionally charged catharsis here. Memories rise to the surface, from their ambush darkness, leaving but the essence of the past, love. You clearly are not choked without words, I just felt this all with you. Through your words. Writing "Empty Heart" generates some of what you feel. Within uncertain future, comes fear. Within fear, lies life's grand adventure.

[paradise]

wow this was just amazing... im speechless fantastic job ahh just amazing

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

Distant love and complexities...
fantastic!!!

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

You had me here: I find you on a distant plane
Unaware of the fading lines
That once bound us close
Now frayed; I hang on to them
Do you...

In tears..I wonder this myself. A beautiful piece.

[Liza]

this is very intense and brilliant in contrasts of genuine emotions

I have never been able to relate to long distance relationships; I have my own abandonment issues from father that I could not cope with a lover being distant whether it was out of his control or not

this phrase "Smothered by the growing distance" is what i can relate to

i saw a special on tv once about a man that had a wife and 3 children and was a pilot for a living; when he retired and was day to day with his family; he started volunteering at the women's correctional facility and fell in love with a woman who had a life sentence and left his real family for this impossible love; i am convinced that some people need distance to fuel an illusion and sometimes don't want the closeness of practical and intimate love

[Chris]

In other days people dealt as they had too...come today it is a totally same and yet different world. We are a click away and yet the price of a ticket to GET the hug can and often is beyond reach. Back then people "settled"...and today... people settle...

[Poetic Beauty]

Long distance love is a hard thing to deal with. It can work but eventually one person has to be willing to leave the comforts of their world to emerge in the others. You can't do it for long periods of time. It will drift and life will move on with or without you. If the love be true then all things will work out for the best. The fear here is the unknown. What is going to happen? What is happening.