A Distant Love

Long - distance relationships...

Its not that easy
Living with your invisible presence
Pretending that you are
Feigning that you exist
Within an arm's reach
But all I touch is empty air
Reeking of a rotting memory

I've kept you safe in my mind
A place where time cannot strike
You have not changed
I don't let you

But within this broken reverie
Through the tiny cracks that appear now and then
I find you on a distant plane
Unaware of the fading lines
That once bound us close
Now frayed; I hang on to them
Do you...

Have you, in your expanded vision,
Left all our promises buried and forgotten?

Have you, in your new found strength,
Left 'us' out, in the cold?

In a new life that you share
I guess, you pulled out all those old fragments
In a bid to be so new and fresh
For all those strange, new and fresh faces

Its not that easy
To be left behind in the waters of the past
They are stagnant and empty
No dreams grow there
Among the scattered carcasses of so many hopes
Ignorance, it has finally claimed that land

I wish I could understand you more
And I can, yet again
Justify all that is you
Reason rarely does bother with feelings
And it is they which command me

And I wish I could express it all
So that, for once, you could look beyond
Your narrow sphere of life
And see another
Helplessly entwined with yours
If only it wasn't so...

Liberating, is that what love is supposed to be?
But I feel entrapped,
Smothered by the growing distance
Its not mere figures anymore
And I am choked on all my unsaid words
Silence, I fear, is what I hear now
Deep within me
So don't accuse me of being silent
Because I have nothing to say

You disguise your fear well
If you fear at all
Hidden under your cheerful smiles and undying laughs
Is it a confusion similar to mine?
Are you still caught up in your flawless vision
Of a life unplanned?
Do you dream?
Do you remember?

Worthless questions and absent answers
And with a sigh, I have to ignore them all again

I wonder if I still know you
Long it has been since I last knew you right
Its not that easy
To love a distant stranger
A stranger strangely familiar
But for how long...

Author's Note

Something I've been feeling lately...

Reviews

[Silent Lover]

Sorrow is often sweet when dancing with love. We all reach, yearn, and dream, of a place, a person; anything to free us from the madness of the moment. The dulness between flights. The darkness between nights.

You capture the journey of human yearning, the raw cry of dignity. Your words reflect your willingness to gaze deeply into the cave of the unknown, and to walk into it, believing their is somebody there to embrace you - seen, or perhaps unseen.

[Leslie Philibert]

This is a great poem, careful considered thoughts well written, a cracker.

[Becky C Strukamp]

Such a powerful and intense write. I feel that the search for answers remains unanswered...that the truth is not being spoken ...yet the feeling of something wrongs is bothersome causing much hurt. An excellent write.

[Ruth]

This is lamentful as it is beautiful...
Voiced in a passionate manner, well written :)

[Hisou_Tenshi]

I feel the same way..
Difficult and despairing the distance can be.. Heh, maybe the smiles are worth it.

[Cascara (aka Sprint Goe..]

most passionate words:

"And I wish I could express it all
So that, for once, you could look beyond
Your narrow sphere of life
And see another
Helplessly entwined with yours
If only it wasn't so..."

[barricade]

Beautifully sad. I can deeply relate to each and every word, each feeling, each emotion. Stirred my soul and feelings i"d been tryin to suppress or rather run away from. Great work! goes straight into my favorites.

[Kenneth The Poet]

Beastly write. I felt the pain and sorrow here.

[Groovy]

nice poem

[KAREN]

Excellent expression of feelings, felt the sadness.