An ignored voice

Stray thoughts.

“…people got me, got me questioning where is the love…”

 

“…wasted life….bad decisions…you should have guided her….you….parents….young teenager…foolish and unheeding…”

 

“…I love you…don’t worry….everything….will be fine…”

 

“…you….ruining your life…..and mine….damn it!....”

 

“…it was the wicked and wild wind, blew down the doors to let me in…”

 

Stop! Stop. STOP!

 

I shake my head vigorously to get rid of these thoughts that seem to drive me crazy. Stupid insight. Stupid, useless love for independence and freedom. Stupid, unnecessary and blind vision for the future that might never come. Stupid. Worthless. No. Nothing. Argh!

 

Straight. Think straight. Concentrate. You can do it. You control your thoughts. You control the feelings that emerge from them. Nothing in this world can ever beat you down or make you unhappy.

 

Look at me. LOOK AT ME! What are you crying for? Why are you frowning? Why are you gloomy? Because you missed out on scoring the best. Because you are frustrated with the way your life has turned out. Because someone somewhere is forever displeased with you. Because there are things that you badly want to change but you lack any kind of control over them.

 

Stop. Stop. STOP!

 

I know you. And I love you for that. You’ve been through a hard life. Giving up is never the option. Be strong. Be bold. Let the world know the strength, the fire that burns behind those shy and yet, gleaming eyes of yours and let them know the knowledge, the sheer, shattering wisdom you hide in your mind. Equally qualified.. Equally brilliant. Equally beautiful.. Equal. Equal. Equal.

 

No. Not his fault. Not her fault either. There are NO faults. Only steps that did not take you where you want to go. No mistakes only lessons.

 

Look at me. No. Look at me. Don’t run away. Don’t hide from the truth. Remember the first lessons of your life. Your ridiculous sense of importance and beauty. You knew your worth and that your beauty was boundless. You knew how incredibly talented you are and you never shied from admitting something you did. Where did that go? Bring it back.

 

Don’t be hopeless. There is always hope. Don’t let a stranger who has no idea about your life blindly guide you through things. Heed suggestions but don’t take hand-me-down decisions. Be you. Be yourself.

 

Where are you going? No. Listen to me. Don’t take the plunge so deep that there is no escape from it anymore. No. Don’t. Don’t let the precious gift of life and love go to waste. Listen to me. LISTEN!

 

 

How many of us listen to that tiny voice in our head screaming these words? I decided that I will and I never felt more comfortable and accepted, even if only by my own self.

 

Let us learn to love ourselves once again. There’s always a second chance and there’s always a better day.

Author's Note

It might sound like endless blabbering but I wrote this at a time when I needed to hear these things myself. Its a tough situation and the best friend to hang on to sometimes is that friendly little companion of yours who is a version of you, living inside your head, far more happy and content...and cheerful.
Let there be no more questions asking "where is the love". :)

Reviews

[Richielee]

very very intriguing, nicely done : )