Misfit

About a girl I knew...

In case you didn't notice

In case, you ever cared

In case you knew how'd it feel

To be stranded and be stared

 

In case you ever realized

How deeply it hurts inside

When your so-called friends

Refuse to be at your side

 

In acse you tried to know

Even I had feelings to share

Even I have fears, hopes and strengths

I'm not someone to mock and stare

 

In case you ever looked at me

With a thoughtful look in the eye

I guess you'll meet my true self

Behind the glasses and the dye

 

In case you enquired

I'd have said that out loud

I don't always want to stand alone

I wanna be with you, the crowd

 

In case you didn't shut me up

I'd have come outside

I'd have shown the world what I could do

I could finally be in the light

 

But you never knew how it felt

To be looked at disgusted

To be mocked and avoided, everytime

As if you're all instructed

 

I tried my best to fit in

But I'm not like you all

I'm one those misfits

Who get repeatedly hit by the ball

 

I tried to make friends

But you never approved

I tried to 'fit in'

I tried the rhythm and the groove

 

I tried to be normal

I tried to live a lie

But still I never undertood

The way you treated me...   why?

Author's Note

I had this girl as my classmate who'd be mocked and ignored by everyone. And I hate myself for doing the same for I never went to her and well, did her any good. It was I, most of the time, causing trouble for her....
I just want to say today, that I'm really, very sorry for whatever I did...

Reviews

[*Kantola*]

Oh my gosh. We have had a few girls at school like this, including me :(
These lines screamed out at me:

"In case you ever realized
How deeply it hurts inside
When your so-called friends
Refuse to be at your side

In acse you tried to know
Even I had feelings to share
Even I have fears, hopes and strengths
I'm not someone to mock and stare"

This piece was packed full of emotion and I can really relate to this poor girl. If I were you, I'd attempt to make amends :) I loved the poem as a whole, this is something that just jumped out at me and GRABBED ME IN lol.
Wonderful poem, Siya!
Hope you're doing well :D

[kurrupted]

so relative, believe me most of us have at one time even for a moment been in that girl's shoes. the feeling of such a situation is dreadful, we see today what situations associated with rejection among peers has cost our society...from columbine to alot o places through out the globe.

while i love the style as well as the font color the position the writer is standing is also a remarkable one...not too many people who who are responsible for making a great child into a withdrawn, potential monster take the stage and confess they were responsible for that.....and even writinga poem about it.

to say i love a particular like or stanza will be an understatement, the whole piece is great. double thumbs up

[aj tanze]

this poem i really liked. i am not so sure if it was the words that moved me or the fact that you wrote it to apologize.
aj;

[barricade]

gawd! the feelings just scream out loud from the screen!!! what words!!! i pity the poor lil gurl!!! what a treatment! and the most ironical part...you never went to her or did her any good...yet you put her feelings out in words so perfectly as though it was you on the receiving end!!! its not an easy thing to do!!!

"In case you ever looked at me
With a thoughtful look in the eye
I guess you'll meet my true self
Behind the glasses and the dye"

loved these lines...how often do such people go unnoticed...we fail to realize that there is more to them than what meets the eye!!!

"I tried to make friends
But you never approved
I tried to 'fit in'
I tried the rhythm and the groove

I tried to be normal
I tried to live a lie
But still I never understood
The way you treated me... why?"

can feel the confusions and all the never ending failed attempt...all in vain...valiant!
am in awe of how effortlessly you penned the feelings which don't even belong to you...hats off!!!
a great write altogether...!!!
great work!!!
keep it up!!!

regards
barricade....