FarewellA Poem by EnigmaLife isn't worth it....Curse these emotions of mine They don't deserve to exist Not inside me atleast Letting me down again and again Making me feel miserable Making me care about those careless beings Without whom, my life would've been so good Or rather Without me, their lives would be better Life has lost all it's charm and improtance Is it really worth it all? Trying out my deep sorrow Every morning when I wake up to my mom's screams Every night when I sleep with dad shouting at me
Every step I take Someone from the back shouts Curses my existence And I fall down Without wanting to Being termed so bad 'An animal' by my mother 'A loser' by my father 'Irrresponsible' by my grandpa 'A B***h' by my own self I can't take it anymore Just can't take the mental torture It's too much Deafening...my own voice Destroying...my own thoughts Everything Breaking me down Crushing my soul to pieces WHY? WHY? What did I do?? What is my fault?? What have I done that everyone around me takes me As an outlet for all the anger and frustration AM I NOT HUMAN!!??
Every decision of mine is pushed down the drain Every idea is regarded as 'dumb' "No!" I haven't got used to that word Though it occupies the most of my life NO to happiness NO to joy NO to everything that makes life beautiful What is going on??
Of all that remains I have to gather it up And focus on taking that ONE decision That would set me free But I doubt That by the time I'd be near to my freedom I'd have lost everything that remains Not a bit of strength to take that one final step No! That won't happen That will NOT HAPPEN!!
I have to get the control back My mind has started controling me My emotions have started leading me into the dark cave Where only sorrow and pain resides No! I don't want any more pain in my life
So back off! Coz' you don't understand Nobody does Except me And 'me' knows what I should do It's pretty encouraging So farewell world Though you made me smile at times But you made me cry a lot You gave me a family that doesn't care enough You gave me a pair of mortal enemies And told me they were my parents
But you also gave me some angels And called them 'friends' So I thank you for that one good thing which I'll remember To tell God when I meet him up there As for now... My body is failing me With head spinning And blood dripping down from my wrist I guess the time has come Farewell... © 2008 EnigmaAuthor's Note
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Added on August 16, 2008Last Updated on August 16, 2008 AuthorEnigmaIndiaAboutHi, I'm Preeti. Nice to meet you! I found this place around the same time I found my love for writing. To be honest, it was a time back when I could write. And I did, oh so much. I found words to b.. more..Writing
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