A letter to God

My words, my thoughts, my feelings...

Dear God,

Hope you remember me. I'm one of your millions of creations. The only thing that can distinguish me from others is that you're actually hearing my voice through my words. Many of my brothers and sisters spend their lives trying to contact you. Not to mention, they distant themselves from everything around them. But many a times, they end up with nothing but disappointment.

I'm not writing this letter to blame you or to complain about all the problems that I have. I'm writing to you because I need someone to talk to. Today the priest at my school told me to do so because that's the only to way to find inner peace and strength. Pretty obvious it is, that I urgently need these things.

So I'll start again...

How are you? Hope you're having a great time uo there watching over us all. I can visualize my great grandma by your side looking and smiling at me. Tell her that I miss her a lot.

It's been such a long time that I talked with you, isn't it. I'm really sorry, God. Please forgive me. It's just that with all the missions that you've set for me (and the ones I've set for myself) take the most of my time and I don't even get to talk with my inner self, left alone You. But today, I really needed to have this conversation.

You must be wondering what I wanted to tell you through this letter. Well, I'm pretty confused myself. The whole day, I was reminding myself that I'd write this and tell this, but now, I just can't think of anything. I mean, who could? God, himself, is READING MY LETTER.

I'm just feeling so wonderfully strange...happy...

One thing that I wanted to ask you is that if you're really that stren and strict on us as many elderly think of you to be. They tell us that you love us all but at the same time frighten us by the idea of Hell. Does hell really exist?

One a personal note, I think these people are wrong. Though I don't talk to you often, though I can easily be ignored in the crowd of your floolowers which amount to be a million, though I'm still an immature teenager, I know YOU. Atleast a little bit. You said that you created us in your image. Well then, I guess, You're a fun-loving, gentle, kind polite, forgiving, and forgetful God.  It's how I picturize you.

I see you like me. Just a little grown up that is...

If you do think of me as often as I think of you, I'm sure you must be confused as to why I shed so many useless tears these days and regard myself a complete failure. I know how you must be feeling. You must be hurt by my thoughts and words where I labelled myself with so many harsh words and didn't think I was worthy enough to even live.

I would discard those moments as my weak moments. It was the time when my thinking was blinded and my thoughts were crushed by those sounds which constantly told me how sick a person I was. I never really saw myself as good enough for anything.

But since today, things ahve changed. Not dramatically as we both anticipated, but yeah! they have changed a bit. And I guess, it's enough for a start, right?

So, though I keep falling at times, though I curse my very existence on this earth, though I committ sins without realising it, though I don't talk to you for weeks...

Please do remember...

That I really do love you..

I admire you for your tolerance that you have for all of us.

I respect you for your gentle and kind behavious to even those who sin.

I look up to you as my savior who would help me get though tough times.

I smile at you as you're the only one who was and will be at my side when the life doesn't seem fit enough for living.

I hug you when I feel like I need one.

I listen to your voice which flows out from the chrisping of birds, the horns of the cars, the scoldings of my teachers and the jokes of my friends.

I guess, you're all around me. How could I ignore you?

This is a fresh start for me. It's my humble request to you to be at my side, not like 'God' 'cause that will spoil all the fun and I'll end up feeling shy and scared. But walk with me like a friend of mine. Crack jokes, laugh with me as we continue this journey you've destined for me.

Thanking you for everything...

Yours forever,

  Siya

Author's Note

I guess I needed to write this. Just for myself...
Please, don't be harsh as this is just an outpour of what's been going on in my head for the past few days...
Just read and enjoy. This is not fiction...

Reviews

[Wolfwind Words]

I think this was a magnificant work of art, even though it was a honest outpouring of thoughts and ideas. God likes letters as much as voices, in my opinion. Keeps things fresh.

As always, whats in your head always makes for reading that opens one's mind and heart to different ideas and images. I enjoy that.

Your Friend
Aaron

[John Stussy]

The Big Man and I aren't quite on speaking terms. But it's always interesting reading what other people post as far as religion things go, because they are more likely than not a genuine outpouring of themselves, leaving what the rest of the world thinks of them behind to be just themselves around their god. Thank you for sharing yourself with all of us so openly.