Materialistic Greed

I love my computer more than my life....

I'm stumbling over the keys of the keyboard

Trying hard to figure out just what went wrong

With Dad screaming at me from the kitchen

And my aunt cursing me under her breath

It's hard to even type

My grandpa struggling in the hospital

And mother out of station

The whole house is falling apart

Mind you, it was never a 'home'

And I'm the one to be blamed

But I don't know why

All my efforts to bring them back together

Die their untimely death

And my hopes are all crushed

Time and again

Oh! When will I stop caring for these people

Who don't care for me

Who don't care for anything else

But themselves

Those selfish people

I hate them all

Or do I?

Then why did I start crying when my mom left

Or why did I feel guilty for not talking to my father

Or why do I feel sick when I think about my attitude towards my aunt

Why do I care so much?

For these uncaring people

Who roam around my life

Crushing it with every step

And constantly throwing stones at me

But I can't just let go of them

Because more than anything else

I love my materialstic friends

'They' have introduced 'them' to me

My life line in this world

My diary that contains all my thoughts

My drawer that contains my friendship bands

Which my friends gave to me on 'Friendship Day'

My oh! not mine but my grandpa's computer

Which has helped me to spread my thoughts around

To evolve as a poet, a thinker, a writer

To make friends acroos the world

To know the real me

To know my dreams

To know everything that's good

And still exists...

I can't just leave this stuff

They're my life

Well, yeah! I'm really selfish!!

I'm the most greedy person around....

Author's Note

A complete diary entry for what's going on around me this very instant. I don't wanna hide it under the lie that it's all imagination. It's hard enough to carry on like this and not feel guilty.
Yet another overflowing emotions put into words....

Reviews

[Dani California]

Siya...

this is a fantastic expression of your emotions
free flowing onto paper.... or screen rather. lol
I love the way you're always able to express yourself
in such a creative and talented fashion. Really quite
impressive..

I understand the frustrations of what goes on around us...
truly.

Here's what I've learned. I've learned acceptance. I've learned that
I can only control my own attitude and my own actions and often, if I focus
on the negative aspects of others, I find more of it. If I accept the things
about them that I don't necessarily like and realize that we are all 'messed up' in
one form or another, and then just focus on what is positive in the relationship....
well then it seems so much easier and more pleasant to deal with.

Love thyself and in turn you will learn to love others easier.
:):)

You're such a joy ... I'm really blessed to have
crossed paths with you my friend.

Awesome work.... ! Keep writing!! :)

[Sam]

Once I started I couldn't stop till it was finished. Your very talented, this poem really spoke to me. I hope things get better for you.

Keep up the good writing.