The Falls

I keep falling down, breaking down...what to do?

I thought I had problems earlier

I was so wrong

My life used to be a melody before

And now, nothing remains of my song

I thought it's hard to live

I thought I won't survive

I thought it wasn't worth it

I thought nobody would take my side

Things went from bad to worse

Things I couldn't take care of

Things that totally ruined me

Things that made me shout "F**K OFF!!"

I dwindled, I tripped

And kept falling down

I turned into an 'gothic emo'

Gosh! I don't like it's sound

As useless as before

Simply worthless I remain

Each new day brings me a new loss

I forgot how it felt to actually gain

My friends remain my lifeline

Their talks; hugs; high fives

By simply talking with me

They're saving my god-damned life

But those lone moments

They bury me in pain

And I try to bleed everything out

I couln't even create a stain

So freaky, so creepy

So selfish I am

So bitchy, so evil

So dead I am

I am nobody

Nobody to recall

I'm throwing my hands in mid-air

Somebody save me from my fall

Now, hunched back infront of the screen

I try to hold back the tears

Try to forget what all happened to me

Try to erase all my fears

I try to supress them

I try to ignore the sounds

I try not to hear them

They just confirm ... me ...breaking down

I have no one to talk to

No one to share it all

And I know it'll hurt too much

But it isn't the last of my falls....

Author's Note

The days are getting worse. I can't seem to find a way out. So, take it as an heavy uncontrolled outpour of emotions which have been giving me head-aches for a while...

Reviews

[Carole]

Wow-this was a very candid write, Siya. I commend you for being able to get this all out. You are very good at expressing yourself!

I am nobody

Nobody to recall

I'm throwing my hands in mid-air

Somebody save me from my fall

Sometimes we can feel so insignificant in this world, but the truth is-We all have something to give. Hang in there and don't give up. :-) Everyone has moments and seasons in life where they feel like you do. Brighter days are coming... Carole