Friends..

They don't hang around much...

They leave me again and again

And I'm left disappointed

A second later, they justify themselves

And I again agree to their demands

Knowing well how much I need them

They still neglect my presence

But, a fool, as I am

I blindly follow their lead

Which brings me to a place

From where they fly off

And I'm left behind

So many came

So many went

None ever tried to understand

Or simply hold my hand

I've spent my days thinking

What did I do wrong?

I would stare into the mirror

Pointing out all my flaws

Inside and outside

But I never showed how fragile I am

Not even to my own self

But that's the truth

That I need them

Call them friends or family

Or even someone special

They are my wings

Whether they like it not

They are my strength

Whether they believe it or not

But why don't they understand

The need of mine today

When I'm sitting all alone

Longing for a hearty chat

With someone I cal my 'friend'

But all the friends that I have now

Are my keyboard and mouse

Atleast they listen to what I say

They don't judge me

Or call me stupid

Just painfully listen to me

And never reply...

I thought I could do without them

But I simply can't

How can a bird live without her wings?

Author's Note

Gosh! I'm feeling so alone.It's been days since I talked to any of my friends... :(

Reviews

[Dani California]

This is magnificent and heartbreaking!!

Wow...

"How can a bird live without her wings?"

Perfect ending! Just perfect!
This is great work Siya...

And of course, on content, one should never ever judge themselves so harshly and based on the thoughtlessness of others.... we are beautiful... no matter what they say!!!!! :)

[Dawn]

How can a bird live without her wings? I LOVE that line..
cheer up...call your friends..if they really liked you, they would comfort you and understand how you feel!!
Its a wonderful piece..
one thing I've noticed in all your poems (well, most of them) is that you let your feelings flow freely...I love the way you don't keep things bottled up inside you!!
Great work!!

[Pj]

You're at the point in your life where there is great change...especially with friends. In fact I started in a group of 22 girls...we split near the end of year 10...now I sit with a group of five and another group of seven (I alternate) and have learnt that all those girls beforehand were just numbers- they never reached out to me. So in all this upheaval, search for your closest friends and extend your hand to them, make the effort and then you will feel less alone.
Your poem is fantastic, and it will transcend time because everyone can relate to it at some point in their life :D

[An owl on the moon]

So moving and emotional, moving me to want to express my heart to those I call my friends. I don't want long stagnant moments to push those friends away... Thank you for this heartfelt message of friendship and love!

[~Wandering Soul~]

this is absolutely amazing
i think it rare in someones life that there is not at least once that you may have felt like this
for me in particular the feeling lasted a few years.....and i was only a child at the time
it is a hard feeling at the best of times
and this poem beautifully describes just that lonliness
absolutely brilliant
luved it
~wandering soul~ xx

[Amy..... "sing To ..]

WOW.... Siya... I'm really blown away.

You do know that writing comes from the heart.... when it does,,, the words seem to flow more easily.

I think you set the poem in motion simply with the first and ending lines... "They leave me again and again" and the ending "How Can A Bird Fly Without Her Wings"....

The middle of the sandwich was delicious!! Keep up the good work ok? I loved it.

[Kitty]

Ahh, this is so sad (but boy do I understand). It's not easy when people aren't there for us, when they cannot understand our need to be accpeted, to be wanted, to be loved. At one stage all I had were my dogs, teddies and music as my friends. I at least recently found someone who has tried to be a good friend, but he doesn't quite realise how badly I need him to be there for me always!!!!

Great write. Keep it up. You write awesome stuff!!!!

Josie