I'm Sorry

It's a depressing poem.I wrote it when I was feeling low.I guess, it was the time when I got my marksheet.My maths marks simply push me into temporary depression.But that was a phase which has passed.Hope you like the poem...

There are times when I simply cannot ignore it all

There are times when I suffer from a back-breaking fall

There are times when there's only darkness to see

There are times when I'm alone; there's n one with me

 

I try and try till I finally fall apart

With deep srrow filling up my lone heart

And I lose myself in the crowd

I'm sorry Dad, I couldn't make you proud

 

I stare into nothingness; I can't stop the tears

And the wound will hurt me for years and years

Nothing left to say; nothing left to feel

Now I simply wonder, when it will heal

 

My castle of strength has fallen down

And I coudn't even detect the cracking sound

I'm tired and defeated; I can't do what I vowed

I'm sorry Mom; I couldn't make you proud

 

What is it that I have done wrong?

Why can't I change this noise back into a melodious song?

Why can't I possibly stand apart from the herd?

Why it ain't in my power to heal this world?

 

My heart silently screams; my eyes shed invisible tears

I'm shot dead by my depression; my fears

I wish I was bold enough; I wish I was loud

I'm sorry my-SELF; I couldn't make you proud...

 

Reviews

[Sally Edwards]

Lovely read, very sad and poignant in places, I can relate to the feeling of letting everyone down but hey we pick ourselves up and things work out. I enjoyed reading your poem it had a nice flow and I especially love the lines

My castle of strength has fallen down
And I coudn't even detect the cracking sound

So wonderfully descriptive.

[Nely Amorim]

remind me to re-post my poetry as you have very similiar thoughts to mine. I use poetry to release my fears and frustration.. i hope it works for you because this is a heartfelt outpouring...

[Tania Leigh]

I love this part:

"My castle of strength has fallen down
And I coudn't even detect the cracking sound"

Depression can be very, very sneaky, yes? Sometimes we see it looming, but other times it just comes out of nowhere. I like how you included yourself in the apologies....that shows that you value you. Without that, it is very difficult to emerge from "the darkness".

A very heartfelt write here :-)