What We Had

It's nothing to me to think of what we didn't have ,
leaving me alone , lost , confused , emotionally abused ,
problems solved on my own, left with no clues ,

no matter what I do I'm not the same without you.
A service to myself , but even better with a connection,
I'm tired of looking at myself , stuck with my own reflection

left here stressing,
I know I'm alive , so I appreciate the blessing.
But I feel closer to my death when I'm always left guessing.
No time, no hope , no extension on life , just left with a rope . You left me hanging

saying to myself "I DO" ,tying the knot and wondering what my life Has come to,
wondering why my dreams never came true ,
Since we can't be close in the physical, in spirit I'll always be with you.