"Undying Desire"

I wrote this and "Word of The Wise" while in the hospital after breaking my hand due to punching a wall three times after facing rejection in my junior year of high school.. Not my proudest moment.

Bleeding from the utter physical pain and metalized agonizing conclusion you've made.

Hearing her bittersweet name is all you need to make me stop all functionality as I roll the old topic around in my head thinking I should have said something differently instead.

Yet again I shed no tears as I have come to terms with the distraught truth she brought to light as it was a ruthless lesson to learn and yet I now question what it is I exactly had sought to receive.

Perhaps the off chance of a three letter sentence from you to yours truly?

She has only been in my life for two to three years give or take at best and yet her very presence had shaped my appearance to something less rough and more clean cut.

My actions had grown to become more sophisticated, you're the reason I picked up the paper and pen to begin with; finally explored the ol' chrome dome's personal treasure trove.

You're the reason to my less rash personality giving me reason to grow to become something far more... and yet once again my irresponsible irrationality is due to my feelings that I've harbored and grew.

As when it comes to my feelings both self belief and self-esteem are a personal conflict that I have fought with daily.

It is me fighting myself tearing what is left apart.

All in futile desperate attempts to change my heart but once the feeling starts it's difficult to stop the idea of loving you.

For even with my grave emotional wounds that you have inadvertently in sewed the concept is still something I hold close and evermore dear, and even though I fear the truth I absolutely refuse to become swallowed up whole by a lie.

Please darling I must behest you to give me another chance to show you I have more than enough room left to improve to eventually prove my true worth on this desolate paradise people call earth.

Author's Note

So what did you think?

Reviews

[Njeri Brooks]

1. I read the quotations, and I realize this girl must have really meant a LOT to you.
(Unrequited love isn't fun.)

2. If she didn't put as much effort in, then it wasn't worth it. You could find someone who does put in effort.

I'll be VERY honest.

I have not really had a serious relationship before, and even if I did really crush on someone in that way, I'd do the opposite of what you did.

I would ignore it until it went away, which entails avoiding the person like the plague lol...

(I know it's VERY cowardly, but we all cope with certain things differently.)

But back to your writing, I can tell that this girl was still really precious to you even though she hurt you emotionally.

I can only relate to how much you wish you had another chance at a love that didn't last. Only in my case, it wasn't love of the romantic kind. It happened to be someone who was very close to me and treated me like her daughter.

To me, love is is a great concept to "fall in love with", and I think you did a great job with expressing and communicating the hurt you felt.

In addition to this, I wanted to know if you ever got the chance to try again.

If so, was it just a rebound?

P.S. Despite the fact that I couldn't relate to this piece in so many ways, it was an easier read.

However, I'm not the type of person who wears their heart on the sleeve, and that could have been part of why I couldn't relate to some things.

[Sir_Anonymous]

Sorry would have responded sooner but my house had a power outage due to the storm outside.

I am not one to wear my heart on my sleeve either but this is just how I write this is what is phosphorud inside of me that I was too shy to sound like when it came time for me to come out clean.

In fact I have poems about my hesitate nature two of which are on this site "Speak" and "Her Mind"

Words don't describe her well enough for others to see my reasons on being so fixated on her you would have to see her and listen and maybe you too have seen what I saw glisten.

Of course this was now nearly three years ago and I have moved on for the most part but she still lands a special place in my heart.

Sincerely, The One & Only... Me

[Sir_Anonymous]

***Would*** have seen what I saw glisten.

[Sir_Anonymous]

***Fostered*** instead of "phosphorud" not even a word...

Sincerely, Pardon My Poor Spelling

[Njeri Brooks]

You're fine. Everyone has typos from time to time. Although I've got to say I wouldn't have figured out the sound one lol.

[Njeri Brooks]

Also, I've heard that the first love and last love always have special places in people's hearts. read moreAlso, I've heard that the first love and last love always have special places in people's hearts.

It's just natural. Nothing you can do about it.

It may have something to do with the "serial position effect" (Just some psychology to describe love lol) .

But yeah, I'll definitely check out the others you mentioned.

[Njeri Brooks]

Also, in exchange, could you see if you can analyze "The corruption"? See if you can follow it, and determine what the colours symbolize.

[Sir_Anonymous]

Welp time to put my thinking cap on.

[Njeri Brooks]

Yay!👏👏👏

[Njeri Brooks]

God, emojis don't show up well at all.

[Sir_Anonymous]

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[Sir_Anonymous]

Sincerely, "Am I trendy Yet"

[Njeri Brooks]

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If you use emojis, then yea you are.

[Sir_Anonymous]

Oh that's righteous 💪😎👍

[Sir_Anonymous]

Yeah you're right Emojis suck with this sight lol

[Njeri Brooks]

yep, but they look fine on my phone ;)

[Red Rose]

This is so beautiful and the emotions are overflowing!
I love the second stanza- I think many of us are able to relate to that. I hope you are okay now.
You know you should enter this to the contest I made, if you want. The name is "who are you".
PS. that girl doesn't deserve you...

[Sir_Anonymous]

Yeah I'm over it finally but a good majority of my love poems are about her or at least influenced and though I probably was not meant for her she did change me for the better... So there is that at least.

Sincerely,Sir_Anonymous

[Shasha]

Realisation is in our hands and another chance is the thing which life gives to all of us. Again the same things which I say to you in your every poem. And I liked many parts of this poem.

[Sir_Anonymous]

Thank you for the read and ever so apparent love you may hold for my writing... It really does mean a lot to me.

Sincerely,Sir_Anonymous

[Shasha]

Welcome Sir_Anonymus