While Everyone Was Sleeping

Nyamara just turned 19. Follow his journey as he battle with finding the true meaning of loss,

Dear Kowie,

I had my first orgasms at the back of my house. Her name was Zane or Zana, it was such a long time ago that I'm not sure if I can get the details of the events right. We were playing hide and seek - I might have been fourteen by then. I know what you thinking, too old to play hide and seek I know.

But let me go back to my story before you lose interest. This Zana/Zane girl and I looked everywhere for the friends we were playing this daunting game of hide and seek until we give up.

"Let's just go wait at my house," I said to her. In my head, I had a plan of making Lemonade and sitting at the porch and telling her a little about Aristotle. But when we got to the front gate it was locked, we had no choice but to go jump the gate at the back.

I jumped in first because: 1. It's my house and 2. She was so slim I thought I could catch her with one hand. She came in after me and she was heavy that we fell to the ground and she started laughing and I started laughing and I don't know who kissed who first but we were kissing. A few seconds later she reached for my belt, took it off & put my penis in her mouth. Of course at first I protested but that didn't even last that long. The sensation I felt was the closest I could get to heaven.

I'm writing this at the library, I'm sitting at that corner table - the one where we had our first kiss. I remember everything like it was yesterday - the smell of flowers, your thick dreadlocks and your smile that could light this whole town. It makes me sad a little, that just last month you were well - happy and now you broken all over again.

The lady at the institute won't let me see you or tell me how you are doing or most importantly if you reading my letters. I know what you said the first time we met, but please understand Kowie I'm that kind of person when I meet people who light up my world I carry them with me till death.

Please write me back - say anything. There is nothing I desire more than to hear from you.

Yours and only yours

Nyamara