*Deny Death*

This is a poem based on how I feel This is true...

~Looking out the waiting for something to happen Crowds of people smile& so my heart saddens~

The sink is leaking going drip drip drip

While my depression gets worse my heart goes rip rip rip

Close my eyes trying to figure out what went wrong

Hold back the tears by singing a comfort song

The words I needed to hear was i'm sorry

They said for me not to worry

Gave them a chance

But they said i'm a mistake without a second glance

I remember now

Because of the pain they caused me my self esteem went down

Relief meant drinking 

To inhale meant smoking

There are times I still feel like dying

Its that awful truth I keep denying

There wasn't a day

I didn't feel this way

There was times I just kept running til' my legs ached

No tears, only sweat filled my face

I'd go home to sleep& wish for a better day 

Years passed& the sadness I still can't forget

Did I ever ask for too much?

Because of what you did, I held a grudge

I open my eyes& i'm still waiting for that apology that will never come

10 years I've been waiting to see you come in through that door, I must be dumb

I didn't jump that day, there must be someone out there

Who will really care

Give me the love you never tried to show me

At least someone will give me the love that I need...

~The walls crumble down, her happiness she can see Alas the tortured soul is set free~