Shadow Crow/Like a PencilA Poem by R.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Two pieces that go togetherShadow Crow
I fumble around in the dark
For the doorknob
Opening the door to my heart
I write poems and throw crumpled pages at the wall
Hoping they’ll stick
My eyes glued to the back of my head
Hoping they’ll stick
In a pitch white plane of silence
The noise of nothing screaming
Pounding my eardrums like a heartbeat
The repercussions of never fitting into this jigsaw world
Just another piece of the puzzle
I hitchhike through the narrow hallway of my mind
Trying to leave the labyrinth like a lost bullet
A tripwire of many climbing the walls of my skull
The metal melody metallic melodramatic majesty
In the lone man’s banquet of sanctuary
Tragic tapestries trappings of rhapsodies rattling ravelled staccato
Reverberating mosaics playing permeating radioactive Rorschach orchestras
Strawman anguish vanquishing dangling pancreas ankle-weights knee-deep to waist
Holding heavy hate over his head like a pedestal
Remnants of emissaries vicariously lariat into a mountain of bodies
Twisting and turning and knotting until they become one
Tongue-tied spirals kaleidoscope the nightlights of vice-grip the psyche
As the people form together into the jigsaw I could never be
Fumbling around the doorknobs for the lightswitch
In an endless basement of swallowed stars
Where even the foundation of light lost its way before the end of the tunnel
And somewhere amidst this trainwreck, I am still alone
Sitting by the stairway, like a telephone line crow
Under halftone piano notes
I return to the dark as I emerge to the light
Two heads with the same skull
Talons of Valkyries scratching the vinyl surface of the abyss
The skin of the morning dew
Stretching taut across the trypophobic rockface of Gaia
Valhalla’s alleyway’s for clandestine valentines scraping homo-sapient
You cannot wipe yourself completely clean
And start anew
Everyone leaves a stain on this world
The fabric of history was once a white canvas
The sky is not only full of bright colours
There is no guiding light to walk towards
Without the existence of your shadow
There is no door
Without the same empty force, watching, entering
Wishing for both shadow and light to begin blurring together into art
The seeing of two eyes
Crisscross paths
Both wishing to be on the other side of the moon
Wanting, losing everything they left behind
I fumble around in the dark
And find my way inward and out
(Third eye blind)
Walking the line
The chalk angel in the black snow
The tightrope of a kaleidoscope
Somewhere between the light of my shadow
Like A Pencil
I hold my temper like I would a pencil
A graphite knife of nightlights abyssal polycrystalline chrysalis
Like the flare of a city-lamp in Ontario winters
Golden light glistens hanging over half-frozen newspaper scraps dancing amaranthine
Half naked figures of mannequins cast alabaster shadows, art galleries
Pirouette like deathless epitomes of marionettes predestined maleficent
Mimicking how the hands of the clock take their time
Every precious moment like a movement of maestros intertwined
Every conductor a trainwreck of emotions and music redesigned
Nocturnal murmurs of phosphorescence apostles stars aligned
And bathe my oasis in memories of the finest art
Rewinding and unravelling like a windmill of flower petals
I hold my temper like I would a pencil
How the hands of the clock take their time
Every precious moment like a movement of maestros
Every crescendo a conductor
A trainwreck of emotions and music
A speckled sepulchres’ nectar
A shattered horizon intertwined rewinding Ursuline scythe made poltergeist
A church giving birth to its circumcision
Hallucinations praising euthanasia
Hypothetical weatherworn pedestal of drowning arms called stars
Armageddons’s arpeggios woven into fourleaf clovers
In metempsychosis’s metamorphosis
Meteor chlorophyll primordial as the morning sun
The celebratory metaphorical oracle torments solar-flares in sporadic madness
The spores of rigour Mortis ornery cornucopia meandering propaganda of pandemonium
Chthonian custodian of embroidery’s planetoid void of comatose ambrosia
The bottomless mirage of entourage jawbone francophones become daffodils’ pathogens
The chandelier sulfuric lyrics mural dreary metallurgy of iceberg clergy surging divergent hurricanes
To maim in God’s good name all the same
Blessed by deathlessness etching phosphorescent embers of the resin of pestilence
Insane malaise allegations playground amalgamation down to the roundabout foundation
I am so tired of playing a game that rules over me win or lose
Heaven’s escalators take a flight of stares watching from open windows
Cathedrals zebra zigzag skin-tagging shadows of stained-glass lightning ichor of kaleidoscope
I hold my temper like a pencil
Shaving hours of my life away, sharpening myself, scratching white black
Like a knife
A record-players needle
And every word is another scar
And every scar is another story
As what is a body, but an empty page?
As what is humanity but a book?
A false bible to quote and praise city skyscraper god’s of humanity’s sickness
Something to cling to
In an endless library of bountiful beautiful cruelty
I hold my tongue
(Like a pencil)
A whip I am hesitant to crack
© 2020 R.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Author's Note
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StatsAuthorR.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Burlington, Halton, CanadaAboutMost of my poems can be differing lengths depending on the time you want to spend reading them. You can avoid reading anything brackets, or read it all. If you want an in-between, you can read only th.. more..Writing |