LessA Poem by R.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Depression and psychosis leave dismembered memories, every passing December.Under the cold sky brotherless I confide like a butterfly in goodbyes until sunrise, prizeless I follow the footsteps of my betters, competitive with the remedy to eventually be better than this I rain tears like rough weather, falling rotting under the weight of a feather, forgotten like a red leaf Creeping to the ground, to be found resonating in the sound of decay, waste my life away Only going down on this elevator to hades obsidian, oblivion civilizations built on hatred Live brief, no release, seep insanity running from my hands again like sand through few fingers The pain lingers, the passion sings, the world rings in my head like a dead memory, record beat on repeat Clean my face of acne, mask my fantasy, collapse inhumanity, humility grows frigid under the sigil religionless Physical scars bar my windows tight, ready for the bloodletting fight slighted and spiteful Broken glass passes through my veins, mashed potatoes and pills, disdain a tornado in my brain Rightfully delighted to watch the sunrise on the night sky splintered winter figureless skating dominated They will never be resurrected in this matrix, the tombstone holds the spirit, the rhythm moulds the lyrics, Patriarchy disembarking pulling me apart into a million pillaged pieces of a pilgrimage, Commitment sits well at the gates of hell, patiently waiting for Nirvana an island in an ocean of debauchery Coal burns sulfuric, God mocks the marks on my heart a perishing phoenix, bearing no merit, divorce is my marriage War my miscarriage of eradication; the world is impatient persecuted for imagination annihilated The white snow shades my hatred, jaded bulletproof saviours are never gonna save me Raving with the crazy phrasing I try to create unamazing, demonstrated, acclimated, evidentially Fucked up mentally, less healthy than a mouse on mickeys, liquid flickers through my veins like a lighter Cyanide glides by my blind side luminous fire ludicrous ominous desire, promises comical Bottomless, and orbited pollinated soullessness, petals fell from heaven to hell There is no end to a dead life, there is no light at the end of the tunnel, hell isn’t underground I emit my fear, kindred embittered witness to the acknowledgment that it’s legit felt around us Less than my sovereign bomber of a souvenir cosmically farming my clear cut forest of resources Remorseless as this hoarse sore throat spits another silver wad sodomized in the summer sun Persevere before you disappear in the rinse of innocence and purity Look in the mirror at searing sincerity, one day away from death's destiny Burning vulgarity is the only furious being that stares back at me, I only see disease, dominating Merely merry with my sanity, carrying the harsh weight of all this hate My own spark is all dark marks of humanity that swallow me, scars eating hollowly at the flesh, godless Look at a martyr see, a person of society, see, a prophet of sobriety, bleed poison ivy, Grow torture, a morbid flower of ivory from my pores, dead inside the mind but it’s only me, only irony Only less, regression reborn a testament as the sentimental memories left my corpse, cordial, disembodied lovingly God looks down frowning above me, I said f**k you to the high almighty heavens praying on death’s cycle, an iron scythe lifeless Where were you when I died? Did the sun dry my mangled cadaver so much that you forgot who I was? Did it ever matter? Ripe to harvest in that carnage, parting ways with yesterday, disciples of your rifles A demon of the true humans, it’s a beautiful view before you shatter to glass on the sidewalk by the road pass What was my carcass, what was this cold course through hopelessness for, why did I walk that road alone, with no hand to hold? Running through the ever closing corridors that crushed my wings in celebration, cremated on the wind, air conditioning Less than a liability, a syllable vigilant for a death sentence, but I can’t spell out even one word further Fucked by the birds that deserted me, a flock of crows, at the end of the rainbow, my heart froze The sky snowed people parts, outside the dark horizon of my hospital window, they carted bodies Widowed children fragile like an egg precariously dropped softly from my window To splatter scrambled on the grey Hamilton sidewalk like another cigarette To forget I had wings in the first place, remade solitude Cocatris, proclamations of silence crying fire A chick rancid in love’s remains Caged to never fly again Less than an insect Less than here Less than Them You I © 2019 R.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Author's Note
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StatsAuthorR.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Burlington, Halton, CanadaAboutMost of my poems can be differing lengths depending on the time you want to spend reading them. You can avoid reading anything brackets, or read it all. If you want an in-between, you can read only th.. more..WritingRelated WritingPeople who liked this story also liked..
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