A FantasyA Poem by R.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Dealing with being left behind, resigned to continue living. Sister poem of "A Reason", this one is a little shorter.Next time I won’t be so delicate, when you want to play rough Worship the pain I hate you for a reason, remember? Your hearts as cold and dismembered as the fallen rotten leaves of a bottomless holocaust dream of grieving December, a firing gun shatters Hippocratic, romantic arrow in my heart, just another dart, needles between my arteries, cauterized lobotomy Next time you shoot at me, I will bleed maternally until you burn to be nothing but the flicker of a lit wicker, dim under the midnight trim of the wings of darkness Embarking into the spark spotless, stark among the white lights of digital blight, formidable inevitable treble blends through the sentimental cemetery of renegades, bathe and wade in the barrage of bullets and blades, until the shade kills the sun, and the lights go out for every angry gun Glittery pitter-patter of the rain of the fallen drowning collateral batter, in the sprawling walls of maroon saturated waking of shattered teaspoons of blood splatters, daggers of madness tattered immune to foolery, mutilate me until the sheets drip and weep with the fleeting emptiness of a leaf at the bottom of a pond, done, drowned, raw, the lights are out for everyone, but every angry gun has peppered me like a zeppelin, stepped on stickers deliver sinners as the sicknesses visions beckons and bickers with the passing seconds I reckon it’s over, this lonely silence is the only islands these eyes could ever recognize or know, where the clovers grow sober the world over, all hopeless, and every angry gun has buried my body sodomized into a serial killer, so real that it’s become unbecoming of me, ethereal dreams willing rise to be nothing be blood sweets I will not die a something of Satan, I will die in the nothing, the suffering the hatred I was made from, an unloaded gun, I will rise from the earth and spit dirt currents, so you can reload your explosions unload and blow me open full of holes, broken under my unforgiveness, emotion corroding my mind ,hopeless, motionless, encroaching broken down in the mass burial mound under Nirvana Let my spittle cry me a little river of livid drowning ludicrous isolation, dine on me in your hatred, my blood cheap beer, my heart dark coal burning warm feelings unbreathing, my space remains vacant, my hollow body under the ceiling houses these shores, pour the gore without remorse, sour crushed grapes raped into wine, define evil, cut vocal cords bore me, but when the world shouts, what else could I be? Devoured by insatiable cowardly I never had what I wanted, needed, I was alone long before I was an egg, semen, redeeming every firing gun, bulimic on the run, undone under the scarlet coverings of death, raining red bloodshed But when you killed my people, threaded the devils heavy metal arteries through my seams, and stitched a monstrosity's obituary molecular segregation inflamed in the observation of a concubine of my judicial judgement, I realized in my wholesome evil, under the jails veil, beneath all the flaws of lawlessness You burned the chronical of hospitality, abolished and smashed my masterpiece into a romanticized fantasy I was pretending, believing in a fairy tale under my chainmail solitude, bailed in the shallows fragile bending under the pressure, drowning in your leisure, every firing gun lives in peaceful feathered flowerbeds This divine genocide has opened my festering eyes Coping in a fantasy within the confines of reality I guess I never remembered a grieving December to believe in, in my shacked freedom of faded reason Controlled by a covenant of puppets, I reluctantly suffer In a fantasy forgotten in the manslaughter, abandoned Armageddon, left behind in the cold cellar Smelted, imprisoned in my sanctuary, reliving their heartfelt deaths to the last breath, alone I guess I never really had a real home I guess I never had a real hope Just a computer filled with poems © 2019 R.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Author's Note
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AuthorR.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Burlington, Halton, CanadaAboutMost of my poems can be differing lengths depending on the time you want to spend reading them. You can avoid reading anything brackets, or read it all. If you want an in-between, you can read only th.. more..Writing |