Paradise

A song for the ones that I lost on the way here, never to see again, forgotten women and men, I'm sending them my regards behind the iron bars of realities still looking for them up in the stars.

Teardrops pop like piñata’s on the snow below, I’m so cold

I loved you so much the heat from my embrace made you evaporate melt and fade away

Leaving me here today in the gray memory lane engraved on my heart, alone again

I can still hear the voices that spoke as the choices drop like rain from the sky, the alibi, the lies, yesterday’s smiles

Landing on my face, cannot erase the taste the sorrow misplaced like a large soda with fish paste

You held my hand like a true friend before the torture began and I became the man that I am

Damned to look up at you as you walk away leaving me drowning in the rain

The others caused me pain, I wish you were here to clean my stains of blood on the walls

The fingerprints on the windowpane are in mint condition wish I could be living with the love you’d given

But I was not a saint, and you’re so far above my head I cannot see you flying over the sky

Don’t know what I could have said, could I have dodged a bullet of led, seeing you lying dead on a cold flower bed

My eyes red, angry now, cold as the hills we played on with our sleds, the tears shed cannot keep our souls fed, we were bred to be sent away, sure, but why can’t you stay?

Why did you leave me, what emotions have seized you, I believed in your heart, did my love not please you?

Do you not feel me here? You don’t see you complete me? Have you freed me from this see-through world of snow and now you think I’m beneath you?

Come back I need you! I don’t want to bleed here where the weeds grew, with the memories they slew escaping as I'm waiting and watching every thought leave, you stole from me

Do you not see I only exist because and for you? Was my love not true, does my sorrow not matter, are you not moved?

Did it blow away in the cold rain, the shame in ice shattered right on my name, do you blame me like the others just the same?

I’ve been maimed, insane since being rebirthed in the dirt, hurt but not heard, yelling without words

Quartered in thirds, murdered as the birds sing a lullaby, our love died as I cried in the moonlight

The feeling as slight as the white light that took you from me, your legs walking away why couldn’t you stay?

Your eulogy is torn and frayed, no blade can cut through the misery you could have forgiven me, have you forgotten to believe in the armour we weaved?

 I couldn’t protect you, now your shattered shards surround the ground melting all around I cannot collect you as you sink in the stink of my pain, the link broken a bond I'll never have again

The sky blue, the air brisk, I would risk the world for you, missing the last kiss you gave before the grave

Between the glades of today, tomorrow doesn’t matter, the past is battered, the world is blue tears, I couldn’t be sadder 

Spoken words occurred after they mattered

I’ll build a latter to the sky to find my wife, the love of my life before I’m sliced apart by the knife of now's reality tonight

Should I run or fight, is existing while your not here even alright?

And in my dreams how can the end be so snow white? Despite the chilling cold and ice, why does it look like paradise?

Author's Note

I very seldom reply to reviews, but I promise I read EVERY single one. I look forward to my next review because it helps me learn. Even if it's just one word, I promise, I will be ecstatic to have the chance to hear what you have to say. Whenever you write something about my poems, or the themes of my poems, or criticize me it is not in vain. I will listen, learn and be thankful.

Reviews

[Najam Us Saher]

After being hurt, heart sing melodious songs of heartbreak. This poem expresses the deepest scars love leaves behind.
'Our love died as I cried in the moonlight' this sentence is very touchy.
Loved the last line above all.

[NEHA]

nice poem...and infinitely deep!
expressed yourself so vividly..i appreciate the background of this poem
Indeed a great delight to read it...
#claps

[wordman]

a deep touching write,longing for something

[Victoria Westing Haddix]

Wow. This is so deep. I LOVE IT

[R.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)]

Thanks for the compliment, I have another poem called Mauled that you might like, it's pretty dark though. Soon I'll send you a piece of a poem that we can work on together for the collaboration!