Broken RoadA Poem by R.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)It's been rough at times, but I've written yet another poem about what's been going on in my lifeI walk alone On a broken road I keep up the pace I do what I’m told I race Through my time here Knowing someday I’ll grow old And unfold the pages of my life Looking back at the faded pictures Mixtures of memories, pain, happiness, and understanding I don’t think I’ll ever have a wife I’m asexual and I fear intimate relationships But I like to think that someday I’ll be happy This kind of thinking may seem sappy But it means a lot to me It is the optimistic behavior my doctors would like to see And the person I need to be For myself and to feel free I want to slip into a string of good days like a favourite pair of pants Comfortable But some day it’s going to be dirtied by my tears, blood, and the muddy broken road Leaving me naked in a cold sweat, lying on the floor I mine my existence like ore Looking for gold and diamonds Prospecting for a better life Something I can sell for my need to consume happiness It’s what sustains me Someday I will be better is what I say Living for today Writing poems to help me say what I want to say Frantically, escaping another gray phase Raising myself higher Climbing over a mountain of stress So I can caress every moment and person that makes me want to continue living Pretending I’m winning to keep my parents grinning White lies aren’t sinning if they ease others souls I burn through whole coals in the flames of my ambition Using my intuition as a form of nutrition And writing down everything I find is a tradition It eventually gets processed into writing Comes out with no fighting, as easily as breathing air Lighting up my day with a way to vent without a care Someday I wish to share my feelings in a book But look, I’m really doing this for myself No one else I selfishly keep my broken road for myself You can’t walk it I’ll block it off so you never stalk through it But s**t, if one day I find someone who truly cares, someone, I can trust I’ll give them the option to walk with me through the mud and the rust But I warn you, your socks will be soaked, and boots are a must Once you get through the bitter crust I’m actually quite soft on the inside I don’t smile wide, but I won’t hide from you if you want to hang out or talk I’d be stoked if I found somebody who cares I hope I don’t get stares and bad lip behind my back, but it’s only fair I no longer crack under pressure anyway Because I’m happy with what I have I’m honestly glad to have a loving family A cat, some friends, and my poetry And I owe it to me to continue rhyming until life ripens into a fruit fit enough to bite into Someday, the muddy, rusted, broken street that I’ve been through will shine like gold I walk alone On a broken road I keep up the pace I do what I’m told I race Through my time here Knowing someday I’ll grow old And unfold the pages of my life With my poetry © 2017 R.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Author's Note
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AuthorR.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Burlington, Halton, CanadaAboutMost of my poems can be differing lengths depending on the time you want to spend reading them. You can avoid reading anything brackets, or read it all. If you want an in-between, you can read only th.. more..WritingRelated WritingPeople who liked this story also liked..
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