A Second TryA Poem by R.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)When life knocks you down, that doesn't mean you can't get back up and give it a second try. Be it stress, mental illness, depression, or physical illness.A Second Try I’ve been through this bullshit enough And it’s tough I’ve been rough My mental illness and stuff My hopes and dreams like a candle that’s been snuffed Leaving me blind and alone While I watched everyone around me living in a world full of light It was so dark that I couldn’t see the good in my life, how lucky I am Giving me the pessimistic view that everything was greener on the other side But I’ve learned how to bring a lighter tone to my world, and grow my own grass It’s finally time to shake off this rust I’m not buff But I’m strong enough to brush it off like it’s fluff Cause if I can then I must It always used to be my own mind I couldn’t trust Full of illusions, and paranoia But when it comes to accepting my reality and making the best of it I think I’m finally ready Im going to blow the dust off my poetry And I’ll be sharing it openly Because I feel it’s supposed to be When back to normal I can boast to be Seen by those that are close to me As if I were well again Finally able to give back to those that helped me My woes dug a hole so deep, under my feet, Burying me alive and almost killing me, I was filled with defeat It was my prison and I thought I was beat But I’ll get out somehow There’s so many things, places and people I’ve yet to meet I’ve been nearly silent for a while Choking on my own bile Still I grit my teeth and just smile Because I can still run the extra mile And scream at the top of my lungs with excitement, sharing my story, just letting it all out Maybe there are those that know what I mean when they hear my words And flock to them like a nest Maybe they can learn from my mess But I digress I’ve finally climbed over a mountain of stress I’m not at my best Yet I know that this is a test To show everyone that I tried, and I know I won’t rest I know at some point I messed up I fell too hard and I couldn’t get up But that doesn’t mean I can’t pick my depressed a*s off the ground now And say enough is enough And walk through the door of redemption and self gratification Spending my days full of enlightenment without medication I want to astound the others around that you can indeed still make a sound when you’re on the top of the mound of fucked up thoughts looking down on them as you live like a cloud And possibly even help people bound to be the same way Who continue to struggle everyday Because their life is just gray And be it as it may That doesn’t mean it’s the way it will stay I thought I’d never get better So many years spent contemplating death That I couldn’t live my life But I've learned how to be me again To enjoy every minute of my life The wisdom and that high feeling that you can only get by going so low Not knowing where my path takes me, but still itching to go Understanding can be learned in two ways, from experience, or from others So learn from your sisters and brothers, so you know what to expect And when life gives you a sharp turn, you’ll be prepared If I could just write my younger self a good letter A poem just something to say it’s ok, to never give up Or better one to those others in need Smoking weed to forget what they see To be honest I hope we all can learn to be the person we want to be And just lead your soul through the journey that is life
And be happy to live it, as if you’re willing to give it, a second try © 2017 R.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Author's Note
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StatsAuthorR.J Calzonetti (SinisterPotatoe)Burlington, Halton, CanadaAboutMost of my poems can be differing lengths depending on the time you want to spend reading them. You can avoid reading anything brackets, or read it all. If you want an in-between, you can read only th.. more..Writing |