This Time

This time…

Was the first…

She kissed me and

Then I slid my hand up

Into her coin purse.

That was sixth grade

In the bathroom stall.

The second time…

My love stalled.

She said some s**t that

Made my heart hurt.

I guess it was my fault

Because I initiated the flirt

With a simple talk

That would later on

Enable my germs

To venture out into the earth.

Furthermore,

Fast forward…

I was a sophomore...

Around that time

My pulse couldn’t

Go on anymore…,

But later on...

“F**k It”

Was my motto

I began to view life more abstract

Picasso…

I graduated high school and at

The same time I FELT as if

I won and lost the lotto.

I gained,

But lost a lot of friends

To DEATH who I never

Saw in my tomorrows...

Moreover,

Like a comb over...

This filled my soul with

Plenty of sorrows.

Until you let me borrow…

More than your time,

But then you told me that the

Glass was running

On its last hour.

How sour!

And for a long while

This forced me to become more than jaded

Because I got tired of being the one

Who always waited…

The last time…

I swore to myself that this would

Be the last time

I would ever put my heart

On the line again…

But I lied again

And we sinned again

We were never meant to

Be friends!

This time…

Lead me on to say,

“Next time.”

Reviews

[Willard Wells]

Nice writing and you brought imagery to your work in addition to loss and love. Mostly coming of age and finding your place. We all have to do that and I am not certain that we ever get it right, but it is an interesting journey along the way. Thank you for sharing

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you for reading as well as your review.
Interesting journey indeed!

[Sarah Hampton]

I really like the way you worked:
'But lost a lot of friends
To DEATH who I never
Saw in my tomorrows...'
Into a vivid story of growth and life.

Also, I can relate. I sure wish death didn't think he was a friend of mine.

[sinNsincerity]

Why thank you Sarah! Those lines are really personal to me and I'm glad that you could relate!

[Kathryn Smith]

This. This is so good! it's so true and so good. :)

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you Kathryn!

[KWP]

a life long addiction to this one love ... ahhhh hard it is when you keep getting drawn back into a relationship that offers you nothing except a sweet and momentary escape ... hard to drag oneself away complete when you know there may always be another chance waiting in the 'next time'

I like this write - easy to read and relate XXX

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you so much for reading hon.
i highly appreciate it!

[B]

Very nice
I like the closing line

Hopefully the last one is the last woman and you will have many times with her

The search for your other half is quite a riddle
its all in the kiss

The main piece of all puzzles
Love this

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you so much for reading love!
I really enjoyed your note.

[TheOne&Only]

Very dramatic like I thought. Fast paced, then all of a sudden life slowed down....a momentary realization...very Nice. I enjoyed it. Thank you.

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you hon for reading.
I'm glad you enjoyed it!

[Jamestown]

Well written and delivered, I really enjoyed the journey you took us the reader on!
Wording unique and fun,thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you James!
I'm glad you enjoyed it!

[Nadia Gerassimenko]

Dear friend, this is one of your best pieces yet! So personal and yet so relatable.

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you for thinking so Nadia!
I'm glad that you can relate!

[Jen]

This is not just poerty but a story of growth. I like it! It has a flow that would rap well. Very well done!

[sinNsincerity]

Thanks a bunch Jen!

[JayceeC]

Sin. This is so open and honest. I think you have just not managed to meet the heart that matches your to fill all the broken places.

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you so much Jan.
I still have plenty to open up about... =D

[JayceeC]

Oh I in know way thought you were through. All anyone has to do is look at your moniker. ..I'm sure anyone who goes by Sin has plenty to confess.:-D