Marlboro 27's

I’ve been on an unhealthy diet of water and cigarettes:

Marlboro 27’s.

I’ve lost hope for this awful planet,

So I keep my faith on making it to heaven.

My insanity and conception of life isn’t a curse.

I do admit that it is a gift that I had obtained

Since I was a young kid.

I’m keeping my soul,

But the heart inside of my body is growing oh so cold!

This feeling leaves me more than sick!

Why?

Because I have no control over this.

I have been controlled with my mind stuck inside of me.

Look around!

I see nothing but sorrows on this ground.

An angel’s voice is the only sound ringing in my head

Killing my innocence.

I can’t afford a decent meal for myself

Because my pockets only contain twenty-five cents.

I get no help taking care of myself

Or loving myself.

I’m searching for a love for myself,

But I need no help.

Forget my health

Because my sickness is stealth.

If you see my face,

You would never know of all the problems I face.

Deep inside I couldn’t hide the truth,

So this is the life I face.

I want to know more than your name.

I want to remember your face

No matter the pain it brings.

I would never abuse your kindness because…

My eyes see through blindness.

My mellow tone is far from shyness,

But I’m not too sure you want to understand all of this.

Plus, they’re days where I think of suicide every five minutes...

Novelties are my serenity

Because they help me escape all of my insecurities.

Making love with scriptures and to those I don’t know names of

Because they paint me the perfect picture of imperfection.

The devil:

She leaves no fingerprints...

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I knew this place once. Cigarettes, booze and too much thinking.
"Making love with scriptures and to those I don’t know names of
Because they paint me the perfect picture of imperfection.
The devil:
She leaves no fingerprints..."
The above lines. Solid and good. I liked them. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[sinNsincerity]

Glad you could relate. It was a dark place and time for me. Thank you for reading!

[Coyote Poetry]

It is and you are welcome.

[jeannemarie coulter]

thought provoking read...i never think of the devil as male or female...but rather as an sexless dark being...i will have to consider this...i am impressed with your skill with words and images...

[sinNsincerity]

I used to think I was going crazy or delusional, but that's just how deep I am.
I like your take on the devil.
When it comes to me, I believe I've seen him or she in the people around me and sometimes in myself.
And thank you for your praise so much.
I take writing very serious. I never have or will do it just because. God blessed me with this gift and it's one of the last ones I have left, so I'm holding her tight.

[Writeforlovely]

This leaves a print of curiosity.

It is very deep and dark and probably how a lot of us feel..you manage to write all those feelings we all feel deep inside somewhere.

xoxo

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you for thinking so and reading Natalie.
The crazy thing is that I felt this way all in way single moment.
It was sort of a brake down I had and then cleansing feeling afterwards.

[Tanya]

Deep and dark, you can really feel the emotions of a person in a lonely state of mind, who is helpless to himself and the world around him. Great choice of words, and great detail to someone's grieving pain.

[sinNsincerity]

This was my pain and it wasn't too long I was in that rut.
Great observation and thank you for reading Tanya!

[Tanya]

It was a pleasure to read it.

[Maja]

"Look around!
I see nothing but sorrows on this ground."

I love that line. Question though, don't you mean "leaves me more than sick"?

Aside from that, beautiful poem. I love how it started from the cigarettes to the story behind it. Lovely as always. :)

[sinNsincerity]

Yea I wrote this when I was I a really dark place. Happy to say I have crawled out of that funk, but there are days when I feel this low..
And thank you for catching that Maja, I just fixed it. =D

[Maja]

Well, you have us whenever you hit a low. You're welcome! ^_^

[andrew mitchell]

profound, powerful, demanding write, Nice one!

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you Andrew!

[wordman]

a profound write my friend

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you Sir Wordman!

[wordman]

my pleasure david