Never Dead

Haven’t written in weeks.

Haven’t slept in weeks.

Why?

Because I think way too much,

So my mind is never at peace,

So if I died tonight, I’ll never rest in peace.

Never dead.

Or at least these are the thoughts inside of my head.

Laying my thoughts over my bed,

So I’ll know what is needed to be said during the right moment.

So upset because I haven’t become what they have said.

Well I don’t care what is said,

So they can remain upset while I take another hit.

Same heart as when I was a kid.

Soul was once lost,

But came to me like the sun set does to the west.

Now I don’t want to let you into my world because it’s mine to protect.

I still love you,

But time is still whenever we are together,

So how can we ever move on?

Playing a new song as I inhale this thick smoke from the bong.

Who am I to belong?

Feeling wrong,

(Wong hehe),

But is it alright that I let you out of my sight while I closed my eyes to enjoy my high?

Goodbye to tonight..,

So for right now,

I’ll settle for lust and a lack of trust that has me at a rust.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

You are right.
"Because I think way too much,
So my mind is never at peace,
So if I died tonight, I’ll never rest in peace.
Never dead."
Death is the question. Dead is dead. Last rest is lonely grave and forgotten. The poem was filled with frustration and looking for some purpose. I enjoyed the poem. Made me think tonight. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[sinNsincerity]

I'm always glad to hear that it made someone think, so that's awesome!
Thank you for reading.

[Coyote Poetry]

Good to keep a old man thinking and you are welcome.

[Rana]

There's a lot to love about this piece. It's effortless to read from the first word, gripping, flowing smooth. Not having written or slept in weeks 'cause of the ceaseless thinking, those words draw passionate writers close. The sun set imagery is specially good. The 'Who am I to belong?' struck well. It's totally nicely done.

[sinNsincerity]

This write was strongly inspired by my environment while living and being raised in Los Angeles. I was in a really low and isolated place; although, I was accompanied by so many friends and family. I used to tell everyone in my life that everything was all gravy when it really wasn't and that was an unhealthy life to lead. All my writings are just a small sample of what I've been through. It's so hard for me to go beneath the surface and talk about it in my writing, but I feel I need to go deep.
Thank you so much Rana, I always love hearing from you.

[Rana]

Hmm. And i know, it's really hard, you tend to feel, um, sort of exposed (i did when i tried): non-fiction, specially personal, is the hardest genre ever and it pays doesn't it, it's always more than just a write or just something to read. You've mastered it by now.
Always love reading your stuff too David, and visiting your world. =)

[sinNsincerity]

It's my pleasure! =D

[dan]

Yeah, taking a hit from a bong makes me write confusedly also. I question everything...my birthday, everything. So I wait just a bit till it softens and then write beautifully. Darn, now I'm giving away my secrets. A nice, entertaining piece of writing! take care...dan

[sinNsincerity]

It actually keeps me sharp and on point. I do most of my works under the influence.
Everything comes together. Don't worry I won't give them away hehe.

[Lyric]

wonderful peace, its great

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you!

[Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere]

Very good, Sin in Sincerity. I can relate to mind that is never at rest, always thinking, pondering about everything. Like it very much. :) Rudi

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you Rudi, so glad you were able to relate.

[marcus]

I like it, try the volcano, it's better for your lungs, and thoughts!!

[sinNsincerity]

Oh I have, but I don't care too much about my lungs. I don't discriminate to any form of marijuana smoking hehe.
Thanks for reading Marcus.

[marcus]

No, discrimination is wrong!

[sinNsincerity]

Very much so in any way, shape, or form...

[Stephen Scaggs]

I like this poem probably because it conveys some fundamental truths: "Because I think way too much,
// So my mind is never at peace." Other than that, I appreciate the raw emotions, like everyone else stated. Also liked this line: "Now I don’t want to let you into my world because it’s mine to protect." Might actually have to write a poem based on that. I like more structured poems, but I liked this, too. Thanks for sharing and asking me to read it.

Rating: 8.5/10

[sinNsincerity]

no problamo! Thanks for reading Stephen.

[Emily]

I really like this one!!
Keep it up!

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you.

[Maja]

I always look forward to reading your poems because they are just so damn good. I love the feeling from this one; it's raw and fluid and these lines:

"But time is still whenever we are together,
So how can we ever move on?"

Are amazing. That is a question we should all ask ourselves when trying to get over the loss of a loved one.

[sinNsincerity]

Why thank you. That means so much to me!

[sereenaoutloud]

Sometime the loss is too much , the expectations too much and we just need to check out!!
Brilliant raw honest write Bestestest bestie

[sinNsincerity]

Yea it really can be.
Thank you Sereena haha =D

[sereenaoutloud]

Each time more est.. to the best lol..
you are always welcome! :)