Glory

Turn my glory into shame.

The foolish will not stand in my sight,

but I’m standing in their shooting range.

I sin and I’m very weary with my groaning.

All the night, I make my bed to swim.

But I water my couch with my tears.

My heart and soul are consumed because of

grief,

fear,

and

love.

All of this makes me up.

Asking:

Please save me from all those that persecute and deliver me.

If not,

allow them to tear my soul like a lion.

Rending it pieces, while there is none to deliver.

If I had done this,

if there be iniquity in my hands,

if I had rewarded evil unto those that are at peace with me, 

then yes,

I have delivered them without a cause as my enemy.

Allow my enemy to persecute my soul and take it whole if I can’t be forgiven.

Let them tread down my life upon the earth and lay my honor in the dust.

The Lord will come to judge the people.

To judge me according to my integrity inside of me.

Oh let the wickedness of the wicked come to an end.

Preparing myself with the instruments of death.

Making a pit that I have dug and then falling into the ditch which I have made.

My mischief shall return upon my own head and my violent dealings shall come down upon my own pate…

Author's Note

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Reviews

[ANTO]

If the thief on the right (or is it the left - can't really recall) of Jesus on Golgotha - had had more time and inclination then he might have penned/spoke this Sin. Its an admittance of being human and whats more is its a human with extreme self-awareness and insight.
Very eloquent - well written my friend.

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you sir Anto!

[John the Baptist]

Sounds like a prayer of penitence, but it's difficult to determine to whom it is directed. The speaker seems overcome with guilt and feeling a need for punishment, but also asks for deliverance from oppressors. There is a hint of suicidal intent. Hope it didn't turn out that way.

[richieb]

I can picture this poem being recited by a man facing persecution. A rallying cry to summon courage and stay the fight. Well done.
Peace,
Richie b.

[Mari' Emeraude]

This sounds like a Psalm. The Kings would be proud of you!

[‘Thoughts In Time..]

It is so true what we give out returns to us- but forgiveness is for all and the cry of a desperate repenting heart can change everything- only the pure of heart will see the kingdom of God- loved reading🌹

[Mikku]

Mesmerized.... Loved it.....

[Alecia]

So much passion I love it!!!!!!

[¿]

I find deep revenge like feeling and loved the way enemies are invited to destroy and giving them threat of the return of their deeds. Deadly creation!

[Sarah]

The art of self awareness, a beautiful poem.

'Making a pit that I have dug and then falling into the ditch which I have made.'
Love this line, its the way of the Universe. Thanks for sharing.

[JessyJacob]

I feel
"Asking for forgiveness is only I feel, one can ask for if they feel they did wrong, but I don't see any reason to ask for forgive. I never lay your honor in the dust, as you are my honor. You don't ever ask me to forgive, only a big hug makes feel better, if you feel something is wrong done by you or by me".

Etremely feeling sorry for missunderstanding.

[Einstein Noodle]

when caught in the throes of penitence ... oh the passions, the wailing, the great need for forgiveness ... all born on the cross of Jesus in my book ;) we aren't excused; but we are washed, brushed off and stood upright ...for as many times as it takes ... i love the brutal honesty of this poem..i love where it takes my thoughts and emotions ... great stuff in this one my friend... thank you so much for sharing
E.