Chapter Twenty

Frey hates everything, His monster wants to kill everything, Rema thinks she's going insane, and Kacia is a b***h.

Warning: This chapter does contain mild violence, Self Injury, Death Threats, a s**t load of cursing and offensive names, mentions of torture, mentions of murder, and subjects that may disturb or trigger the reader.

-Rema-

Things were getting worse with Frey, and I was lost as to what to do.  I felt hurt as well, and broken by not only what was done by that man, but what Zekk did that I never took the time to properly recover from.  But I worked to become stronger, I worked to be happy.. Frey… Frey just gave up.

The night terrors were constant, the mood swings, refusing to eat, depriving himself of sleep, and then constantly altering between personalities.  It was all too much to handle.  Something inside Frey’s brain was broken and I wasn't sure if I could fix it.

I wanted nothing more than help him, have both of us move forward, and be happy together.  Live normally and comfortably.  I loved Frey, and I told him often… He never returned the phrase.

I walked out of the bathroom and into the living room to find Frey sitting on the sofa, staring at the static on the Tv with that blank and lifeless look on his face.  The room felt so cold, and I quickly checked the temperature to find it was Fifty-eight degrees.  I turned the heat on, confused.

“It was far too warm.”

I jumped at the sound of Frey’s voice… because again, it didn’t sound like Frey… No accent… No spark… Just dead and flat. Like a robot.

“I’m… Glad to see you up…” I said slowly.

“I am really beginning not to like your little blond friend… Or you, either, for that matter.” He wouldn’t look at me, his eyes stared at the TV.  The static blurring a deftone over the speakers.

“Is the cable out?” I asked.

“There’s plenty to watch… You just have to look.”

The strange way he said it, mixed with the twisted upturn of the side of his mouth made shivers run down my spine.  The way the light and shadows cast on his face only made this more creepy, and I felt like I stepped into an even freaker horror movie than the one I already was in.

“You’re… acting odd again…” I said.

“What?  You don’t like me?” He chuckled, but it was dry and put on. “You know Frey would never love you, right?  He doesn’t know how…”

I winced at the pain the statement shot into my chest and I swallowed, “I’d like to talk to Frey…”

He turned, slowly, like his head was on a screw.  There was this strange, almost evil look in his eyes and they seemed to swirl with darkness… sucking up my soul as I looked into them.  I found it hard to look away, then he smirked and pulled up his sleeves, revealing rows and rows of cuts on both of his arms.

“Look what I did.” Then he laughed, and it shook me to the bone. “Think that’ll teach him for not listening to me.”

“F...Frey...I…” I didn’t know what to say, I only stared in horror at the deep gashes.

“You going to hit him?  Because it won’t fly with me, I’ll break your other arm, b***h.” He spat at me, then slid back down his sleeves and sat back in the chair, staring at the static.

“I want to talk to Frey.” I repeated.

“Too bad.”

“What happened?  What’s wrong?” I asked, hoping I could get through the dark alter and to the real Frey.

“What’s wrong? You naive girl, are you f*****g blind?  Or are you just stupid?”

“Frey, knock it off…”

“I think I’ll kill you one day, rid him of your nuisance and ‘priceless advice’.”

“Frey, you’re scaring me.”

He laughed, his head bobbing from side to side while his laughter sounded more like the cackle of a witch than the short, sarcastic chuckle I often heard from Frey.

He cracked his neck and then suddenly stood, limping on the broken leg over to the kitchen.  He could hardly walk on a normal day, yet he was walking with little issue now.  He opened the knife drawer and pulled out a butcher’s cleaver, letting the light catch it while he turned and started walking towards me.

I watched in terror as he sliced open his wrist, then grabbed my arm and attempted to do the same. I yanked away from him, falling off the chair and onto the floor.  I crawled backwards, gasps and whines escaping my lungs as I tried to get away from him.

His blood dripped from his arm and onto the floor and he stalked me like a bird of prey, slow and long steps as I scrambled across the floor.

“Frey, knock it off!” I screamed.

He laughed, “You want to help him so damn much… Why don’t you both just die together?”

“Frey!”

“He’s always telling me not to go near you, trying to convince himself and me that you mean something… He knows you’re holding him back… And you two think you can be normal? Live normal lives.  You’re both murderers, and it’s all you’ll ever be.”

“Frey! Stop!” My back hit the wall and he hovered above me.  His expression not even looking human at this point.

“You’re both monsters, just like me, and neither of you deserve happiness.  There’s a special place in hell for the both of you, and I’ll laugh when I see you there.”

He went to grab my wrist again, and I grabbed his arm and yanked him to the ground.  I struggled for the knife, pulling it from his fingers and threw it.  He punched me in the jaw while I tried to grab his hands, and I barely managed to dodge and fight off his next blows until I pinned his wrists down.

He laughed in my face, “You’ll both end up dead.”  Then, his eyes changed and looked up at me in confusion.  The cold expression on his face vanished, and his brows knitted together while he attempted to pull his wrists free.

“Rema… Rema… What’d I do?” It was his voice, he pulled lightly again. His eyes widening when he saw the blood and cuts on his arm, he looked at me with a panicked expression. “I didn’t mean to. I didn’t… I don’t even… F**k, my f****n’ leg hurts…”

I quickly let him go and he rolled onto his side, cursing loudly and holding the brace I had gotten for him.  He must have overused the leg while he was altered.

He looked over at me, then back at his arm. “You gonna hit me for this?  Why’d ya let me go?”

“No, Frey… I’m not going to hurt you…”

It killed me to know that was what he first thought when coming back around, that I was pinning him down and going to hurt him because he hurt himself.  That he thought I’d hit him after everything that he’d been through… He didn’t trust me… Even after everything.

"Just relax." I said, sighing.  “Com’ere.  Let me help you.”

He flinched away when I put my hand out to help him up, like he expected to be hit, and I pulled away and tried again slower.  I walked him to the sofa, sat him down and gave him a smoke, with some pills and a glass of water.

“I’m sorry… If I scared you…” He said, “It’s been… more active lately.”

“Why?” I wondered.

“I'm not sure."

"This is why you need to talk about things more..."

-

-Frey-

Rema had been putting in job applications constantly, and finally got an interview and left me for around three hours.  I was alone for two of them, than that stuck up little brat came home and glared at me as soon as she walked in the door.

“Where’s Rema?” She asked.

“Job interview.” I told her plainly, pushing around the food on my plate.  My stomach felt sick, but I was so hungry.

“Good, then she can start putting food in the house to replace all the money you guys been eating up.” She hissed in a passive-aggressive manner.

I clenched my fist, the monster encouraging me to shove the fork in her eye until I pulled it out of the socket.

“What about you?  I know you’re a f****n’ ex gang member, but can’t you get a damn job?”

“The f**k told you I was a gang member?” I asked, taken back as I snapped my head up. “Do I look like a f****n’ gang member?”

“Rema told me, dumbass.”

“Well, I ain’t a f****n’ gang member… and that isn’t even why I can’t get a job… So f**k off.”

“What are you, some irrespondisble f****n’ teenager?” She threw her hand up, her face twisting with disgust, “Can’t even work like a normal f*****g man and make a living for yourself?  No wonder you were f****n’ homeless.  What does she see in you?  Just seem like some immature, insensitive a*****e to me.”

“Yeah, and you seem like a junkie s**t b***h to me, who seeks attention from random strangers and f***s everything that moves because her daddy went for a pack of smokes and never came back.” I smirked at the shocked look on her face.

For a moment, I thought she’d walk over and smack me, but lucky for her, she controlled herself because I would have broken her f****n’ face if she dared.

“You know… F**k you…” She stomped out of the room dramatically and slammed her bedroom door.

Rema came in the door at that exact moment, her eyes staring at Kacia’s door, then she looked at me. “What happened?”

“Nothin’.  She just acted like a little b***h so I told her she was one.” I shrugged. “How’d it go?”

“Good.  They said they aren’t saying a concrete yes, but I seem to be the perfect fit because of my flexible hours and past history of waitressing.” She said, sitting down at the table.  “You feeling alright?”

I nodded. “Just tired and sore… Not that bad though.  I think a lot of the pain is starting to go away, it’s just my f****n’ leg now.”

It was true.  My body had started healing and was almost complete.  The cuts and welts had closed up, the cigarette burns were mere scabs, and even the large lighter burn on my throat didn’t need a bandage anymore.  Although, My leg was still a mess and hard to walk on, even though the nail holes had healed up by then.

It made me feel anxious though, because I hated being stuck in that small apartment.  I wanted to go out, feel the fresh air, and... maybe kill a few people while I’m at it…  I’d love to vent my anger.

“I’m glad you’re starting to feel better.” She smiled softly, her eyes having that glimmer of hope and love in them again.  It made me feel awkward.

“And you?”

“Great, the wrist’s starting to feel better too… Soon I might not need this annoying brace.”

I was honestly glad Rema was starting to come around and pull through, because she really was a mess during all of it.  However, I couldn’t help but be a little bitter towards her.  She was rather weak, and when I first met her seemed extremely so, yet she pulled through what happened with Zekk and what happened with The Man much faster than I did.  She didn’t have night terrors every night, She didn’t want to die because of it, She got upset once in awhile, but it didn’t rule her life like it did mine.  

I started wondering if the roles had been reversed.  When we met, I think I was the strong one out of the two of us, and she was weak and small… Now, it seems like I’ve gotten weak, and she’s moved up.  I didn’t understand it…

I woke up that night, again, not in the bed where I had fallen asleep.  I was wandering the apartment building’s halls.  I couldn’t remember getting out of bed and walking out of the apartment, and my leg was killing me like I had been walking around for a while.  

I looked down and saw splatters of blood on my clothes, and smudged on my hands but I had no idea how it got there, much less how I was even able to kill anyone with the shape I was in.

I heard the Monster chuckle sinfully in my mind.

The Monster had been strange lately.  It was always awake, no longer taking it’s naps anymore.  It was always listening and watching me, no matter what I was doing.  It didn’t speak as much though, it seemed to just observe and that made me nervous.  The blackouts had been happening a lot more, and I knew that was the Monster taking control.  It happened around Rema a lot, and she always seemed unsettled by me, constantly watching me like she wasn’t sure if I was The Monster or myself.

When I walked into the house, I saw Kacia sitting on the sofa, watching TV with a bottle of booze beside her and her make up overdone and smudged like she had just came home from another party or bar.   The woman annoyed the hell out of me by simply existing.   Her stuck up expression, judgemental eyes, and condescending tone of voice was more than enough to get under my skin.  I think the only reason I didn’t murder this stupid woman was because she was friends with Rema.

“What were you doing out there, scars?  Getting drugs?” It was like she was asking me to murder her.  She always had some rude comment to make, and a new nickname… At this point, it was “scars” which was extremely unoriginal seeing how most people called me that anyway.  Scars and Freak were the most overused nicknames I got.

“Don’t do drugs.” I told her, “What were you doing tonight? Getting fucked by a stranger or two?”

I smirked at her insulted expression and watched her cross her arms like an angry child, trying to think of a come back.  She probably was getting fucked by some strangers.

“You know, you really are a rude a*****e.”

“So I’ve been told.” I muttered, grabbing Rema’s pack of smokes she shared with me and lighting one.

“Ya bothering to look for a job while you’re wandering the street?”

I raised an eyebrow, gesturing down at myself, “Do I look like I can f*****g work?”

She scanned me with her eyes, “If you aren’t a gang member who got jumped by his former gang, then what really happened to you?” She asked out of the blue.  “I’m curious, I hear you screaming bloody murder every night like you’re being tortured half to death, who fucked you up so bad?  What’d they do? Why?”

“You really wouldn’t want to know.  It’d give ya nightmares.” I told her in a flat tone, sitting down in one of the chairs and staring at the random reality show she was watching.

“Look, I don’t really give a s**t about you.  But whatever happened to you happened to or in front of Rema as well, and she’s obviously fucked up by it.  So I’m curious.”

“Why don’t you ask her then?”

“Cause she just lies to me.”

“Well, then you don’t need to know.” I said with a shrug.

She glared at me, her eyes looking me up and down again. She paused, leaning a bit closer.  Her eyes narrowed, as if she was focusing on something.

“Would ya stop staring at me?” I snapped at her.

“Is that blood?”  She pointed to my shirt, the dark color of it not hiding the blood splatters all too well.

I looked down at it and shrugged, “I dunno.”

She gave me a strange look, then shut her mouth for the rest of the night.

Author's Note

Okay, so...
There's only three chapters left.
So, at this point Frey's Monster is stronger than he is and gaining control over him much more.
And well, Kacia is a bitch again... So yeah

Feedbacks awesome, lemme know what you think! I'll love you forever and visit you in the Astral Plane and give you Astral hugs!!

Reviews

[Kesha]

Awesome chapter, I once wrote a poem about a woman who had suffered from multiple personality disorder/schizophrenia, in the end she ended up murdering her therapist lol. Great job, I'm excited, almost done with the first volume :)

[Sinbulvinter]

Oooh, send me the link to that poem if you posted it! That sounds awesome!
I have split personality disorder myself, and put pieces of myself in my stories and characters, naturally, Frey was the best fit for most of my crazy traits, so he got my MPD.
I'm glad you're enjoying this so much and getting so close to the ending. Thanks so much for giving my book the time to read and taking the time to review

[Kesha]

I'll have to post it, its in my notebook! So once it's posted I'll send you a read request :) I think that's awesome that you put pieces of yourself in your writing!

[Sinbulvinter]

Awesome, do send a read request! it sounds very interesting!

[Kesha]

I found it, I will post it tomorrow, I don't like posting more then one poem a day idk why 😂😂 I just posted a poem about that female "dexter" she struck again lol.

[Sinbulvinter]

Awesome, I'll look forward to it tomorrow.
And I'll check out your new one too, I liked your female Dexter very much. XD What would ya call her? Hmm... Dixie? Kinda like the female version of Dexter. haha XD

[Kesha]

I'm not sure what to name her quite yet, Dixie would be a good one, it kind of fits her too.. with her attitude and her kind of red neckish ways.. hmm I might just steal that name lol. I'm glad you like her 😊

[Sinbulvinter]

Oh, Dude, she's a redneck like Frey? Awesome! I'm a redneck myself! Rednecks unite!
Go ahead, Dixie sounds like Dexter, but a female verson of the name, and it does seem to fit her.

[Kesha]

Haha yes! Shes the type to wear jeans shorts and a muscle shirt, smoking cigars and always watching people. Alright sweet, thank you!! :)

[Sinbulvinter]

Smoking cigars? Thats so badass. haha.
Frey's sort of a redneck, but doesn't look like one, just acts and talks like one.

[Kesha]

Haha yes it's in both pieces ;) haha yeah I like Frey :)

[Kesha]

I sent you a read request for the girl with MPD who murdered her therapist.

[Sinbulvinter]

Awesome, I will surely read it as soon as I get the chance. I just got Pizza out of the oven and gotta cut it up after it cooks.
I still find it funny as hell that everyone likes Frey so much. He's kind of an insensitive jackass yet he's everyone's favorite.

[Kesha]

Mmmm pizza lol
Yeah but maybe that's why he's likable... he's honest :)

[Sinbulvinter]

I think so, that and the dark and damaged personality and past he has seems to be the s**t fangirls dig now a day. XP

[Kesha]

Lmfao you're funny!

[Sinbulvinter]

It's true, man. it's damn true. XP

[Kesha]

I just like him cause he's badass and a serial killer ;) i think i might like Adare more however depending on how his character develops ;)

[Sinbulvinter]

Frey is a badass and a serial killer, but he's extremely broody. Adare is a little bit of a lighter character and at least has some humor in him, though, as his character develops I have a feeling he may lose a few fans... Because he really gets screwed up in the head later on in the series. haha. You'll just have to see.

[Kesha]

Oooo I think I'll like him even more, I like screwed up people/characters ;)

[Sinbulvinter]

Haha, yeah than you might like him even more

[Kesha]

Whoop whoop lol

[matrixmark]

Good opening, in regard that you showed subtely just how much Rema was coming to her wits end with Frey. But things are never gonna be all happilty for ever after or sunshine an rainbows with 2 serial killers living under the same roof.
Yes, the scene was good what you wrote about when 'the monster' talked to Rema. The only thing problem I had with it was that - why didn't 'the monster' strike there and then - But it could be because he is just gaining more strength and waiting for the perfect moment to strike - Either way - it was well written.
You did a good job with portraying Kacia as a strong person by showing her no afraid to ask Frey some very direct questions and not afraid to stand her ground. I actually like her for sticking it to Frey by calling him 'scars' and also why shouldnt she - Freys been being fed by her and using the aprartment free of charge, so she can do what she wants. Good for her - But I feel that her number will be up soon.
Good to see you rememebed about Remas cigarette wounds - Well done.
The part which I found the most scariest though, was when Frey was sitting and having a chat to Kacia - I can't put my finger on it BUT it was just a little surreal to see it happening - It was like waiting for a tinderbox to go off. But to add to that, isn't this whole apartment which they are living under 'one big stick of dynamite' - the question is who's going to light the fuse to trigger the explosion.

Another greate chapter. Another piece where I can see a lot of hard work has gone into it and it flowed really nice and was easy on the eye.

Mark.

[Sinbulvinter]

Thanks for reviewing! I'm glad you're catching up and enjoying it so much. It makes me really happy when people can see the hard work I've put into my stories.

I think you're right about Rema, she is just coming to her wits end with Frey and all the s**t she has to deal with. She's got a lot on her plate, and finally reached her own sort of breaking point. The relationship between Frey and Rema has become a rather toxic and borderline abusive one at this point, and it's to be expected with 2 rather unstable serial killers under the same roof.
The main reason "the Monster' doesn't just kill Rema right then and there and keeps up with the threats is because whether 'the monster' is seen as a demonic force or a personality disorder, it's a part of Frey - Frey, while he's annoyed with her and blames her for a lot of things, doesn't want to kill her. 'The Monster' and Frey are basically battling inside him for control of what to do with Rema. As 'it' said itself, the only reason it doesn't just kill her is that Frey won't let it.
Kacia's actually a character that grew on me a lot during this book, I used her as kind of a background character and plot device most of the story, but I started to really like her towards the end. She is a strong minded person who's very blunt and doesn't stand down, even to someone like Frey, and freely acts like an a*****e because she can. In a way, Frey and Kacia are very much alike personality trait wise, which is probably why them talking to each other seems so surreal.
Yes, at this point everyone in that house is at a boiling point, it's just who will blow up first and when.

Thanks again for reading, I'm glad you're enjoying it.

[matrixmark]

Like I have said before - I will always try my best to give a good review. I Just try to show my appreciation as much as I can. I am not the best reviewer but I do my best. Like you, my skills lay in storytelling.
Rema is most deffo at her wits end - I think they all are.
Thanks for clearin up 'the monster'/Frey thing. I kind of thought that afterwards but you answered it perfectly. Kacia is really cool. She's an Alpha female and I really like her a lot. Standing up to Frey and putting up with Rema too, takes a gutsy type of person -- good work with this.
No need to thank me, I thank you for sharing the story.

Mark.

[Sinbulvinter]

Well, I really appreciate a reviewer putting time into reading and leaving a good review like you do, especially since Writers put a lot of work into their stories.
Glad I could clear up the monster/Frey thing, it can be a bit hard to understand, i realize. But I try my best to write it in a way people who don't struggle with that kinda stuff can understand somewhat.
Kacia is certainly an Alpha Female, and thats what made her so fun to write towards the end, because she is such a gutsy and blunt character who isn't afraid to speak whats on her mind even if it makes her kind of seem like a b***h. haha.

[matrixmark]

A good writer, always deserves a good review - not something generic.
I do hope Kacia stays BUT DONT SAY ANYTHING because I am excited to find out.
Gutsy people rock! And thats why I like her.

Mark.

[Island Hippy]

Aloha, the monster and Rema scene gave me chills, you did a great job with that and the dialogue which has been really solid the entire time. His menacing calm creeps me out.
Frey's thinking that a really role reversal is happening between he and Rema was really interesting moreso as we learn the Monster is pretty much a constant presence now. I don't know for certain how this will impact Frey and Rema, part of me feels like a show down might be in the cards or Frey will don't something drastic to keep the monster fed.
As annoying as kacia is I get her, but she needs to tread very carefully. Izzy

[Sinbulvinter]

Yeah the monster is a lot of fun to write - it's like the darkest part of Frey, and I love writing the menacingly calm s**t.
Yeah, Kacia is annoying, but it's understandable, I'd be all nosey and in their face too. She does have to be careful though. haha

[Dr. YumnaKay]

I still have hard time believing that about Frey's monster. It would be more logical if he did have a personality disorder but idk lol

That scene with the Monster eyeing Rema gave me creeps. This time I think your length was good enough than the last time. At least he tried killing her before Frey came back haha ;p

Frey's thought process about him being weak and Rema becoming stronger was what I liked the most in this chapter.

And yeah I'm starting to get annoyed by Kacia but still I can't really blame her. Two murderers living with her, she's bound to question them lol :p

As always, I liked the details and dialogues in this one. You carried them out really well.

And I'm happy I'll be done with this volume tomorrow haha :P

[Sinbulvinter]

Yeah I could have gone either way with Frey's Monster, and feel as though I may just edit it to keep it open ended. I like horror, and supernatural thrillers, so I threw that in their. Up until the last chapters, I had it in my mind it was really a demon, but I just left it open for the readers. But the more I think about it, the more sense it makes to just leave it open.

Yeah, the differing lengths just goes to show Frey's slowly losing control of the monster, and it just really wants to kill her at this point.

That's the main character devolopement in this between Frey and Rema is their mental strength. Rema was extremely weak mentally in the early chapters (and still kinda is) while Frey had a lot more mental strength than she did (though he was still batshit crazy.) As the chapters go on, and s**t happens, Rema actually starts recovering and moving on faster than Frey - While Frey pretty much just gives up. In his mind, she's stronger mentally than him.

Yeah Kacia's bitchy, but it's totally valid. I'd probably ask the same questions and act the same way, especially if I had to deal with Frey. haha.

Yay! You're almost done this volume! Just in time too, because I'm just revising, editing, and perfecting the first chapter of volume two today and tomorrow before I start posting.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

True that. It's woman power lol, women recover faster than men haha 😂

And totally yes! I would have done the same as Kacia lol

That's awesome! I'll start reading the day you start posting the next volume 😊😊

[Sinbulvinter]

Haha, true.

Yeah, I'll probably finish editing and revising tomorrow and post the first chapter.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Cool! I'll read back to back haha 😉😊😊

[Oneluv]

In the end will Frey kill himself to protect Rema from the monster? I could be wrong lol but, Frey is lossing control at a rapid rate. Soon he wont be him self anymore. If that happens Remais good as dead. Will Rema figure out the truth about Frey? I think the friend is getting really suspicious and might even follow Frey oneday and witness him murder someone. Im loving this story....its so addicting!

[Sinbulvinter]

Well, I won't spoil the end. But I don't do happy endings, so it is a tragic and fucked up one.
read moreWell, I won't spoil the end. But I don't do happy endings, so it is a tragic and fucked up one.
As for Rema figuring out the truth about Frey, deep down she already knows but is denying it. She doesn't want to admit to herself The Monster isn't even Frey, because it scares her too much.
Kacia is getting very suspicious, and it is only a matterof time until she finds out the truth!

Thanks so much for reviewing and reading! I'm so glad you're liking it!
I have the whole first volume finished now, and I'm working on the second!