Chapter One

Introduces Frey, a homeless serial killer with a hatred and misunderstanding towards the world.

Warning: Does contain brief mentions and discriptions of murder and gore, and some disturbing subject matters and ideals.

-Frey-

I'm not a bad person, But it doesn't stop those judgmental stares I get from people who don't even know who I am " much less the things I do.

I just hate the world. That's all. I hate everyone and everything, from the loud mouth teenagers whose voices make me want to shove a pencil in my ears and stuck up rich folks who make me want to tear their eyes out, to the religious type who offer shelter at churches and the police who tell me where I can't sleep. I despise them all.

I didn't really expect the world to be this way, I lived all my life away from it and when I finally saw what was out there I realized it wasn't what I thought. It's busy and constantly moving, loud and full of life. I was used to quiet suffering, death and hatred.
I expected more pain than I found, and I saw I was different… Most people ever experienced what I did and it only makes me hate them more.

They're people, with lives, names, memories, houses, families, friends, and jobs. Me… I got nothing but the clothes on my back and a whole lot of death and blood in my mind. No name, no memory or history, just a name given to me by a psychopath and memories that would fit wonderfully into a horror movie.

I had been staying in this city for a few months now, sleeping on the pavement under highway with the other drifters. The fires in the metal burrows kept me surprisingly warm, and sometimes if the junkies aren't too loud and the voices in my head allow me, I was able to rest for a few hours at night.

The drifters were starting to ask a lot of questions already, meaning I'd probably have to move on soon. I never stay anywhere for too long.

One person, a street girl probably barely just out of her teens, seemed to have developed some kind of interest in me. Not an actual interest, just constantly questioning me, asking for money, prying into my life, and trying to get something out of me. She followed me around like a lost puppy looking for a treat, she seemed to do it with every man around here.

"So, you still haven't told me where you're from?" Her voice made me want to strangle her. She smiled. For a street girl, she always seemed so damn happy. Maybe it was all those drugs she raved about. I wouldn't know.

"Not here." I muttered.

She rolled her eyes, sighing in a dramatic way. "God, you're so mysterious!"

I was tempted to glare, but then I'd have to look into her annoying face.

    "She's a waste of air, you know that, right?"

"You got five bucks?" She asked, for the fourth time that week. "I need to get food."

I felt the monster stirring, deep under my skin. "Greedy little wretch."

She could just go to the corner, she'd be sure to find some a*****e who'd love to pay for her time. "Nope."

"I'll give you smokes?"

   "She should die. No one would even miss her. No one would notice. It would be easy." The monster encouraged me, pushed me. It brew the anger already inside me even deeper. It wanted her dead.

"You know, you really should talk more. Open up a bit. Yeah, you're a little rough looking, but I'm sure you'd fit in fine with my crew."

   "Her crew of drunken brain-dead fools."

I heard her talking, but all her words seemed to run together and fade in and out as the monster clawed its way through my skin. 

Then, suddenly, her voice stopped.

"I don't understand why you're interested with me." I told her slowly after a moment of the silence. I noticed it was raining. "You wouldn't want to know me. You wouldn't like what you'd find."

All I could hear was the silence and the downpour hit the pavement. "I kill people."

It came out easier than I thought it would. "Not because I really want to, although I don't think I don't want to either. I have to. It's all I know. Death. Blood. Pain. It feels familiar to me… It makes me feel calm, alive… I'd say happy, but I don't know what that even feels like."

I waited for a reaction, like wide eyes, a gasp, or even a small scream. Her eyes just stared off into nothingness like large empty voids.

"You don't understand. You couldn't. We aren't the same even though we ended up in the same place. You brought yourself here, and I had no choice. I barely even saw the sun for the first fifteen plus years of my life. I literally came from hell. You… You just probably were some spoiled brat who didn't wanna live under her parents rules and ran away, addicted to so many drugs you had to sell yourself to get them. You think you understand suffering or loneliness, b***h… You got no idea."

I felt almost bitter. The hatred in me growing for her. At least she had a chance for a normal life, even though she blew it. I was never given a chance. I don't have a single thing I could have built a normal life on. I've been screwed since day one.

"Why won't you talk to me anymore?" I asked suddenly, a mixture of fire in my gut and pain in my chest. "Is it 'cause I kill people? Do I repulse you now? Is it the scars? Or the voices? What? Why won't you f****n' talk? You ain't gonna tell no one right? You're not gonna tell on me?" I snapped, my voice straining to stay at one level.

   "She can't even hear you, She's dead. Idiot."

Realization hit me once the monster's growl echoed in my head. Her eyes were empty of life. Her skin pale and lips blue with crimson dripping from them. Her shirt was covered in blood and holes, showing the gashes and stabwounds in her stomach and chest.

For some reason, this made me fall over laughing. I couldn't even remember killing her.

"Yeah, you ain't gonna tell… You're dead."

I laughed so hard my ribs hurt, it took forever to calm myself down. I picked through her bag, finding make-up, a bag of unidentified pills, a half a pack of smokes, and a little over ten dollars. "F****n' liar." I muttered as I snatched the smokes and money and shoved them in my pocket.

I leaned back to light a cig, inhaling deeply while I thought about heading to the bridge and debating jumping off. I glanced back over at her, taking in the darkness of her eyes. "You don't like me too much, eh?" I chuckled as I pushed off my heels to stand, looking over my shoulder one last time before I walked away. "Yeah, neither do I."

I'm not a bad person.
I swear.
I'm just a really fucked up person in a really fucked up situation.

Author's Note

So, first chapter is introducing Frey, in all is psycho wonderful-ness. Second would be Rema's "introduction."

This chapter (and the next one) aren't all that gory or violent, so I skipped the Mature Content. But a forewarning, this series does contain a lot of violence, gore, murder, rape, and mentions of domestic violence and child abuse, drug use, suicidal idealation and attempts, constant cussing, and very detailed crazy people.
Its about serial killers... It isn't going to be puppies and sunshine...

Comments, reviews, and feedback and greatly appriecated, and I will take any advice I can get to improve my writing. Thank you.

Reviews

[Zachary]

A very interesting start, to a novel and a series of volumes. The main character seems like he's on the verge of killing the little girl. Although I don't read horror that often ( If at all ) I really like this and I would most surely continue. Very mysterious it gave me the creeps a bit. I like it

[Sinbulvinter]

Thanks for reading and reviewing. I'm glad you liked it.
The Main character is kind of a wild card, and isn't really a great guy but I don't think he'd kill a little girl. The girl he killed in this chapter wasn't a child, she was around her late teens/early twenties. He's a murderer, yes, but not a monster. Lol.
Thanks again for reading and leaving your feed back.

[Zachary]

No problem, my pleasure. Have you looked into other writing platforms- like Wattpad, Com Just wondering

[Sinbulvinter]

Wattpad.com? No, I haven't heard of that one. I've tried Fictionpress and Deviantart, but they're dead in the way of novelists and writers, and writer's cafe seems to be the most active for my type of work.

[Zachary]

Yep, wattpad is a free reading site where I could be found mostly.. You might want to check it out, i'm sure this book will do fantastically on there as well...

[Dr. YumnaKay]

This seems like a nice start to a psycho thriller. One of my favourite genres. I liked the way how you just hit the reader with the fact that he was talking to a dead girl and that too without the realization that he'd killed her already... Made me somewhat sympathize with him but idk I'll hold my judgement until I read further ;)

A good captivating read for me.

[Sinbulvinter]

Psychological thrillers are also one of my favorite genres, and it's very fun to write.
Frey's one of those characters I didn't expect people to sympathize with or even really like, but I'm surprised by the positive feedback I've gotten on him.
Thanks so much for reading and reviewing. =)

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Well I don't like him 😉😛 but I think it was the way you made out the scene by him being exasperated by the girl's following him around that outlined the sympathy part 😉

I'll be continuing to read. You're welcome. Always a pleasure reading good works 😊

[Sinbulvinter]

Haha yeah, he's not a really nice person. him getting as pissed as he did about the girl following him around to the point that he kills her, is a bit over the top. haha. But it's kinda like he gets annoyed really easily, then just goes psycho. lol.

Thanks again for reading. If you don't really like Frey, you'd probably like the other Main Character, Rema, her character's a lot more relatable and less psycho.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Figures why he's a psycho 😉😂
And don't worry. I'm very open when it comes to opinions about characters 😛 so I'll let you know even if I hated her haha 😂 I saw you've added a lot of chapters and I will take it one chapter a day 😊😊

[Sinbulvinter]

Well, he's a psycho for a lot of reasons, kinda like he says "he's a fucked up person in a fucked up situation," he had fucked up s**t happen to him that made him really fucked up. Lol. But I won't spoil it.
Thanks for being honest. haha. Rema's a bit more tame and less of a jerk character like Frey, she's a murderer too, but she's more humanized, at least.
Yeah, there's a lot of chapters already, in fact, it's almost done and ends at chapter 24, so you came in at a good time because by the time you catch up, it'll probably be complete and the next volume will be underway.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Oh yeah that was the line which caught my attention the most! Almost like he fucked himself up and blames the situation lol
And noo now you've said I won't rest! I'm one of those kinds who read a novel from the last chapter to the first 😂 good for me 😊😛😛
That's twisted by the way, murderer but humanized? Like does she kill the bad guys only? 😯
This is tempting... I'm heading now to the next chapter 😛😛

[Sinbulvinter]

Yeah, that pretty much sums it up. He's had a horror movie style life, so he kinda uses it as an excuse to be a psycho a*****e.
Haha, yeah I've almost completed it now, so it'll be a full novel in a few days to a week, since I'm literally on the last two chapters now.
Well, actually, sort of. She'd kinda remind you of "martyrs" or "I spit on your grave." To briefly expain her without spoiling much, she's a battered wife who murderered her abusive husband, and now kills when she feels like she's threatened or in danger. Sometimes she's wrong and just being paranoid, but sometimes she is just killing a*****e drunks and rapists. Her killings have a bit more reasoning behind them, where Frey'll just kill someone that looks at him the wrong way. hah.

Thanks, I'm grateful for your feedback!

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Interesting set up.. I'm glad I came by this story! 😊

[Paul Hunter]

Came across this while browsing and just couldn't stop. I really got into the mood and the mindset of the character. Something about the guy wanting to shove a pencil into his ears. It kicked things off perfectly.

[Sinbulvinter]

I'm glad you enjoyed this, and that it was able to draw you in.
Thanks so much for reading and reviewing!

[BBP]

I really dig this so far. You mix the right amount of violence with still keeping me connected to the character, giving him a likability.

The dialogue was well executed, it was like real conversation which is my personal favorite.

I'll continue reading....

[Sinbulvinter]

Thanks so much for reviewing. I'm glad you liked it and want to continue. It really makes me happy when someone enjoys my work and takes the time to read and review it. =)

[CLR9]

So far so good, although I wish the narrator sounded a bit more mature than she is. Unless this was your intention, I feel her voice might alienate an audience by being far too "teen-like".
I look forward to seeing more of this.

Craig

[Sinbulvinter]

Thanks for reading and reviewing! I really appreicate it.
Yes, the character is an adult, but he honestly isn't very mature and does have an almost "teen-like" attitude with him. Which is explained it later chapters, and is a lot to get into why he is that way.
But thank you again for reading and giving your feedback!

[JoeM]

You captured me! It was a perfect hit between the eyes. I generally don't like gore, but so far you do it well.

[Sinbulvinter]

Thanks so much for the review. I'm glad I caught your eye! I hope you'll read on, but it does get pretty gory later on in the story, so it's understandable if you can't handle it. XD

Thanks again for reading!

[CAPOLAVORO]

Oh wow! This one is good. You made me imagine a lot of things. There were no music yet the pure sense of words uttered from Frey's mouth gives life to his character. I love the twist and he killed her. Haha I do expect that though. I would also do that if I was Frey. Easy and valid. Keep writing. :)

[Sinbulvinter]

I'm glad you liked it. Thanks so much for reading and reviewing! It means a lot to me.
I'm glad Frey's character is well liked by readers, I didn't really expect that. haha. I know I'd probably kill her too if I was Frey, he gets annoyed easily like I do. lol.
Thanks again!

[CAPOLAVORO]

You are very much welcome. :)

[Tony Jordan]

I was disappointed in surmising that he had killed her as soon as I read this -
"Then, suddenly, her voice stopped."
I felt you gave the game away and lacked subtlety.

[Sinbulvinter]

I'm sorry to hear you were disappointed, but I thank you for giving the time to read the story and leave your feedback on it. I really appriecate it and will keep it it mind.

[Richard simpson]

Frey's introduction in this is great storytelling and getting to know who's good and bad in the tale. His interaction with everyone is dark and suspenseful. Who knows who could be next on his kill list?...

[Sinbulvinter]

Glad you liked it, but Frey's actually one of the main characters and not really a "bad guy." Its weird, but there aren't really any good or bad roles in this haha.

[Coyote Poetry]

A very good opening chapter. I liked the characters, conversation and the realistic view on life. I will come back later and read more. The story is very good and you have my attention. Thank you for sharing the story.
Coyote

[Sinbulvinter]

Thanks for reading! I remember you from my previous account that I closed. Hi again!

Glad you enjoyed it and thanks again for reading and leaving a comment. I've just finally gotten back into writing and restarted on this site, so i get very happy when someone reads and reviews my work. XD

[Coyote Poetry]

Please send read request. I will read. A very good story. The real life feel tempt the reader. You are welcome my friend.