As I Sit (Behind Closed Laws)

Food for thought - Mindless distractions, dwarfing a global impasse, remain as a result of a lack of awareness regarding the injustice that casually ensues, for many, as part of everyday life.

I sit here

awake in my bed

wondering why it is that more isn't said

why there's people, in the world, some even children, at the same moment

who are about to be shot dead

I sometimes think to myself

and wonder if they think about us as well

the likelihood is that...

they wouldn't know how to be in such a state

to be able to stop and sit, to think and try and relate

spending most of your life

going to sleep praying that in the morning

that you are still in one piece

spending most of the night 

dreaming about waking up and still being alive

no time to stop and think 

I have to survive 

and so...

giving up isn't even a voice in the mind

accepting the worst is the only realistic frame of mind

lays the foundation for the progressions we make then

from the bottom, we make the choice

and begin to climb

I don't believe in thirst or hunger...

they're just two states of mind

I tend to let mine wonder

I spend most of my journey flying

even though the reality is...

that I'm in a world where I'm scared for my kids

new generations either wake up without actually being alive

or being sold into services that are factually worse fates than dying

had to be right? we accept this wrong just as truth and yet we let it slip by?

where is the world while all this goes on

it's like somehow the whole world gave up trying

its like living is something that we all forgot

easier to do what we'd rather not

the life most believe in has been stretched out and squeezed thin

lying is easier than trying to find a life free from sin

especially when you for a brief moment open your mind, and in that moment inside you for the first time are accepting that but then that

means rejecting everything you've done and how far you've come in life...  

you'd have to head back so you could start again that realization is what kicks the brain loops back in, easier to reject, This is just how the world has progressed,  they'll hear themselves say inside their heads, but what eludes is their too scared not willing nor prepared,  when having come so far is what makes you reluctant to invest in returning to the beginning of a line you think you've travelled when you never left. 

the gift of modern man with technology everything has gotta be accessible from the palm of your hand

just distracts from the accepted truth that this world is an excuse to hide from the fact that the human race made some mistakes and now its too late to turn back

losing faith, as our momentum is losing pace and in time... 

soon we will have to face the truth of the matter... 

that what's the use of having a ladder 

if in the end, it doesn't actually climb                                                           

                                                                                                                                                                     

But god is a lie, I hear it all the time, and yet I know that there is more that goes on than makes sense in my mind... it happens constantly but people push it from their incepted design. Without a need to be corrected the illusion is protected

cognitive dissonance, dystopian obedience, is what has the world crying

layers of gas that we amass just to feed the world that has no purpose to exact

just perpetuating an inevitable end that we've yet to accept 

and it has already happened 

It's a fact...

a string wound tight and it's waiting to snap

that's why the only way around apparently is to just wait about it.  

let the economy keep expanding even though many in the world do without, in a world that's overpopulated with so many obese children, in a world where kids no longer play because the media took their freedoms and killed them, |

I can't believe what I'm seeing if you look into my eyes there's rage and it has filled them 

when there's a 6 year old so overweight that in-between stuffing their face because eating for comfort is accepted and commonplace, yet plain to see as you can see the pain on their face as in between bites are have trouble breathing

My mind is lost in it... all of this at the same time... We let in the madness of all kinds, and yet as someone gets thrown from a bar when they cant drive home nor sleep in their car all for getting a little too drunk and being out of line ... I think you will find it is so that alcohol can keep greasing the economic wheel, the lubricant that's constantly fronting the bill ostracizing one so that everybody else gets drunk and 'has a good time'. 

So caught up in what life forgot that no one sees that it's flawed by design 

and a child could work this out if they had a chance to speak their own minds

I work and then wake up to do it again with no refine

seeing a reflection in the mirror every day

like seeing someone all the time you never notice them age,   

same is my ability to view myself as a reflection now is just another step in this plastic world

so desensitized to my reflection that imperfections I just forget them, important to maintain order in this distorted cage that the meaning of the word reflect seems to have changed 

The word insurrection no longer inspires the masses to band together and grow stronger

no time left in this mindless life for the mind to wonder

stop and ponder, why it is this mindlessness should go on any longer

I have to be somewhere else than where I am at almost any given time

always keeps you just out of reach from the opinions you'd likely find

the brain needs room to breathe to know what it is that it truly believes

but as kids, we are trained that this life is the way and so we never stop and truly see and so forever chasing a place that in reality, we will never actually be. 

just stuck in a loop, 

Author's Note

Love you all :). Actually. I smile truly as I write this... I know that doesn't translate... but fuck it. Smile and you might find more of a differential so it's more obvious when it ISNT time to smile. Also just smile. <3