Descent (long way down)

its all about anxiety, hoping to start my own charity spreading awareness for those who suffer with it, as its alot more extreme then people realise, and some people struggle with it every single day.

In a Rutt,

i cant think, my minds struck by such a perpetual complexity,

in such a muck a maze of much immense intensity

-A mind f**k-

just stuck in a pen with fenced off entropy

s**t just bends for me! all just seems like a waste of my energy .....it Succccks!

Clouded by voices, little scratching noises clawing gnawing at the back of my head for days

finding it hard to seek my own tones sorting through the poison crowded screams smoky dreams and haze

I'm nervous because thinking can hurt you when you don't know where your voice is and what it has to say,

in the most malicious of ways,

though everything's your own choice... its action that speaks the most...and often what remains

It Unravels.... now I'm dangling loosing balance as i stand at the top, staring at the slope which i travelled.... the means in which i became

Reviews

[Kari Rakitan]

Thanks for spreading awareness about how anxiety feels. I've been having a lot myself lately, and it has been interfering with my sleep. My eyelid started twitching this morning, and it's still twitching, but the internet says it's no big deal, so I'm trying to to worry about it, but it's still difficult to ignore, and I think the fact that it is happening is causing more stress:

https://www.healthline.com/health/pregnancy/eye-twitching-pregnancy

[Einstein Noodle]

wow ... so raw and real .. very emotive .. i can feel the pain in this ... the metaphor with the mountains and peaks works very well in this says i ... the slopes always rocky ... slick and so even just the first scrambling up cuts and bruises ... we are driven to accomplish impossible feats sometimes .. thinking the answers are at the top ... when in reality they are right there at our feet .. giving up and trusting a higher power me thinks would be a tickling thought from the back of the bean .. that presents itself more and more clearly with each attempted ascent ... really appreciate this line "just stuck in a pen with fenced off entropy" ...the Sciences have so much to offer poets, I think ... entropy in this case is a perfect example ... not easy to bare ones soul to the world .. thanks for sharing!
E.